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[Luna_Storm]

My most recent poem wrote a few moments ago as I try to understand how i'm feeling through a horrible time in my life

Questions unanswered

When did my heart stop beating?,
A straight road broken at its end
Why did my soul break?
Breathing getting faster in pace



Why did the sunshine leave?
Rain falling like acid through the clouds
When did life become complicated?
Heartache and pain the only feeling to feel



Why did the pain get worse?
The cards, the gifts thrown or destroyed
When tears well up uncontrollable
Nothing helps
Nothing heals
Why does it hurt to do the right thing?
When insanity and happiness is at risk
Why did my dream have to end ?
When will my happiness return?

When..?
When..?
Why?

[Caulfield]

Happiness is just a momentary lapse of reality - would be an appropriate answer?

I like your stuff though.

[Infernal Hearts]

My most recent poem wrote a few moments ago as I try to understand how i'm feeling through a horrible time in my life

Questions unanswered

When did my heart stop beating?,
A straight road broken at its end
Why did my soul break?
Breathing getting faster in pace



Why did the sunshine leave?
Rain falling like acid through the clouds
When did life become complicated?
Heartache and pain the only feeling to feel



Why did the pain get worse?
The cards, the gifts thrown or destroyed
When tears well up uncontrollable
Nothing helps
Nothing heals
Why does it hurt to do the right thing?
When insanity and happiness is at risk
Why did my dream have to end ?
When will my happiness return?

When..?
When..?
Why?

Luna, I remember reading your OLD, OLD poems and I have to tell you.. You have gotten.. so much better. I mean, they were good back then but you've only grown better. The fluidity of the words and the images, and the emotion behind those words... They are.. for lack of a better word, AWESOME. <3 Keep going, Darling.. and cheer up.. or I might have to do sumptin' drastic.

[Luna_Storm]

Thanx infernal.I started out with the first lines on a bus questioning myself over and over again and then one time it just flowed and didn't stop.i don't create often but that I felt I had to because right now I am broken and questioning myself .I keep thinking when and why and nothing changes .This was the only way I could express myself

I am, grand you enjoyed it infernal love , I think your the only one lol

[Infernal Hearts]

I doubt I'm the only one, hon. I love it, I can guarantee others will too. As I said, keep going.. or I'll.. uh.. >.> Uhhh... <.< I dunno, but I'll do it!

[Luna_Storm]

when i find inspiration love i shall be back x

[Luna_Storm]

I felt like I had to get my emotions out ..so here are two poems I wrote today. Reality sucks !

In a Blurr

So fast you stepped into my world,
You stood before my eyes , a dream come true
Someone to kiss hold me to be your girl
It all seemed so perfect, so beautiful and pure
Now its empty , like the glass on the floor
The feelings within are not those I hide
I shower you with love , affection and praise
Each time we kiss I become lost in your gaze
Distance stops us ,
Your heart locked tight
I fight with my feelings , trying to understand you each night
Why must you hide?
Your voice I long to hear ,
Why
Why did my dream become a Blurr ?
Why did you steal my heart and run never to return
Why....why
Your all Iv’e ever wanted ...and yet its not enough for you
I feel like my dream is burning into ashes
Reality of our love as killed my dream
Has killed me

Kirsty Carbury aged 22


Love is its true Form

Bubbling within
A touch, a gaze
Hand in hand sitting together in silence
A whisper
A giggle
Butterflies
A soft embrace
Glowing within the warmth of emotion
Perfection?.........no
In shadows it waits
Twisting , contorting
Darkening and breaking
Unclean , unpure
Isolation
Silence
Disturbing extremities
Heartache
Tears dripping with haste
Lost in the fog, the fear
Love is an illusion
Imagination of a child
No destination
Realisation
Forced into submission
Love is a Lie

By Kirsty Carbury aged 22

[Luna_Storm]

Poison to your Veins

The tears won’t stop
The ache within the walls of my heart grows
With a love that’s so pure and strong
I crumble on my knees
I love you
I need you
I know not why you refuse me
Why you turn your gaze away
I plead to know answers
I long to seek your touch, your kiss ...your voice
Why does it hurt so much to want you
To share you with the world
To let my inner child free
Smiling hurts around you
Talking is near impossible
Its like you don’t care
Its like I’m poison to your veins
Am I what you wanted?
Will I ever be?

By Kirsty Carbury aged 22

[fatherkabral]

Life does suck sometimes...your writing is a wonderful outlet. I can definitely see how you are feeling. Keep it up!

[VegaValentine]

Your work is beautiful. So emotional. I like what you have going.

[Luna_Storm]

Thank you darlin. I'm glad you like my work

[Luna_Storm]

Well it seems it has been a long time since I posted something , too long ...so here I am with someone I wrote only moments ago as the current situation I am in has me confused , hurting and longing aswell as alittle angry and the only way I seem to be able to release my emotions is through Poetry so I present you , My Delusion.


My Delusion

Sitting with open palms
I wait for you to reach out
And pull me close
Wrapping me tight in your arms

Lost in your gaze
My heart beats fast
My arms wide open
I reach into the past


Nothing is how it was
The day now fading
I’m lost without cause
The warmth degrading


Once we held hands
The sun, she shone bright
Your kiss tasted like heaven
You saved me from my plight

But now
Now my sun has gone
My lips dry cold
The night now morn
I miss your smile
Your bright eyes deep
I sit and wonder once every while
I lose dreams , unable to sleep

Nothing more than a name
A shatter or break
Nothing left to believe
No paths left to take

If only you could love again
To see what I see in you
If only you could believe again
An realise the truth
Please realise the truth.

[Luna_Storm]

Why?

Why can you not see it?
With your eyes or your heart
Why do you now understand it ?
To make sense of it all
I don’t see the emotion
The light in your eyes
I don’t see your lips smile
No voice to reason
No hands to hold
And yet I know the truth..

But still I fight on
I battle my way through the pain
I shout
I cry
I scream and yell
Falling on my knees
I beg I pled
I have to make you see
The understand
To feel again


Why can’t you see the truth?
Why don’t you know?
Why do you live in darkness ?
In sorrow and pain
When you can stand in the sunshine with me
Why ?


Why can’t you see that I love you ?
Why don’t you stop my pain?
Crushing my dying heart,
Why love someone you will never have ?
Why let her break you!
Instead of being with me
Why ..?

And yet as you still refuse to understand or believe
I will fight , scream, cry
Until you see it
Until you love me
Until you believe its true.


Kirsty Carbury 5/6/2012

Edited by Luna_Storm, 05 June 2012 - 11:33 AM.

[Luna_Storm]

Blind to Love

I can give you the world
Your desires , your dreams
I can give you happiness
Save you , heal you
I could die for you
Fight for you
Give my everything to you

And still as I look into your eyes ,
Deep with tears forming , flowing
You cannot see it
Don’t you believe it
You were always blind
It seems even I can't
Not this time .
Blind to the truth
Blind to Love


Kirsty Carbury 5/6/2012

[Idnaceus Crow]

Such painful emotions love is when others don't share the same feelings. I hate to see such awesome love go to waste on people who don't see how much someone cares about them.
I can feel you're words. I can feel your love. I can feel yer sadness. But I cannot feel yer pain.
I sure hope things get better for ya. You deserve it.

[Luna_Storm]

Thank you Crow .Thank you so much for your kind words
My poetry is my voice
Right now its all I have but thank you for taking the time to read my poetry
It means the world to me

[Idnaceus Crow]

And you have such a beautiful voice I can actually hear the words you write. Say what makes ya feel good. You'll always be heard by someone who cares..even if nobody's there.

[Luna_Storm]

Well I dont think my voice is great or anything but I speak with my heart which often gets me tramped on , used , cheated on , lied to and abused mentally .Its not easy but I cant just hide how I feel.I try to see the best in anyone. I can't hate though I have tried. I seek to help anyone I can but even when I try to love , to have hope and believe that someone out there will want me for who I am with my flaws I always fall flat and get hurt .Its not easy to have hope when everytime you are proven to be wrong.


Thank you once again Crow. It's nice to have someone listen

[Luna_Storm]

Forever left wondering

Falling for someone is like a bubble in the air
You can see it in all its beauty
But if you try to grab it , to hold it and feel it
It bursts leaving nothing but regret .

I sit and I wonder
I listen to the music , the lyrics , the notes.
Lost in a world of what if’s and maybes
I realise I cannot win this game.
I’ve tried to fight it , to stand tall and defend my heart,
I give it my attention, my dedication and strength
I fight till the very last breath
And yet I fall again and again
I’m left forever wondering why?
Why should I fight a battle I can only lose?
Why should I put my heart on the line?
I speak the truth
I use all the courage I can find
The words they don’t come easy, it’s true
My heart she’s racing fast
But here and now I stand before you
And everything just pours out

It is done ….

And then it hit me
Like a knife to the heart
How could he ever want me ?
Someone who wants it all but it comes across as needy
Someone who enjoys talking but comes across creepy
Someone so terrified to fall of being hurt

I tire of being alone
I tired of a life without someone by my side
I wish he could see it as I do
Feel it how I feel
The rejection hits deep
Slowly it kills while I keep a straight face
I try to hide it
But its hard
Forever the friend never the girlfriend
I suppose I should be happy
You can always use a friend right?
But I don’t know how much longer I can hold it together
To fight the tears trying to escape

All I wanted was to love him
To be his one and only
To show him the happiness of the world
To stand by his side through thick and thin

But it seems that is not enough
No , it is never enough.

By Luna Storm aged 23
22/08/2012

[Hellarchy]

Forever left wondering

Falling for someone is like a bubble in the air
You can see it in all its beauty
But if you try to grab it , to hold it and feel it
It bursts leaving nothing but regret .

I sit and I wonder
I listen to the music , the lyrics , the notes.
Lost in a world of what if’s and maybes
I realise I cannot win this game.
I’ve tried to fight it , to stand tall and defend my heart,
I give it my attention, my dedication and strength
I fight till the very last breath
And yet I fall again and again
I’m left forever wondering why?
Why should I fight a battle I can only lose?
Why should I put my heart on the line?
I speak the truth
I use all the courage I can find
The words they don’t come easy, it’s true
My heart she’s racing fast
But here and now I stand before you
And everything just pours out

It is done ….

And then it hit me
Like a knife to the heart
How could he ever want me ?
Someone who wants it all but it comes across as needy
Someone who enjoys talking but comes across creepy
Someone so terrified to fall of being hurt

I tire of being alone
I tired of a life without someone by my side
I wish he could see it as I do
Feel it how I feel
The rejection hits deep
Slowly it kills while I keep a straight face
I try to hide it
But its hard
Forever the friend never the girlfriend
I suppose I should be happy
You can always use a friend right?
But I don’t know how much longer I can hold it together
To fight the tears trying to escape

All I wanted was to love him
To be his one and only
To show him the happiness of the world
To stand by his side through thick and thin

But it seems that is not enough
No , it is never enough.

By Luna Storm aged 23
22/08/2012

Let me tell you Luna, the moment I saw the title of this thread my destination became known. My mind is a little foggy at the moment so I don't have the tenacity to scramble through all of your musings, though I did read this last one and I can promise you that I will revisit and take a look back at the rest. It almost felt as if you were taking these feelings directly out of my own mind. Unrequited love can make the world turn dark and feel as if nothing else matters... But it can also strengthen you as a person in its own way. If I could say one thing to you here it would be don't give up on love, and that if that person doesn't recognize what he is missing he's a damn fool.

Oh, and hello by the way. Long time no see