I come to your thread, and still I find more apologies... I am very glad you posted in my thread otherwise I would have never noticed your work, and that would have been a great tragedy.. I am enthralled by your work and find myself very lost in it. So engrossed that when I found it came to an end I was pleased yet hardly satisfied. I hunger for more, and can't wait to see the rest of what you have to offer us...
I've found a favorite ~shivers~
To all of you whom have so honored me, I thank you. I will add more as I am able, I am currently visiting my parents and cannot hook up my laptop to their system, otherwise I would add things that I've come up with recently.
Before, I was an egotistical, selfish man who would hold something as this above others as a way to say "I see the world different from you, therefore I am better". To my chagrin, my ex found this out about me. Her life continues on, even now it is better than when we were married. I am glad for her, as anybody with any shred of knowledge of right and wrong should be, because I know I was wrong. I am now learning how to be 'right'. Respectful. Proper. Dignified.
To all of you who have shown such patience
I am indebted in ways I can never repay
I have lived my life as a dead man
not caring what happened in the world around me
I am sorry
for never having had regards for the feelings of others
when all that I did was to satisfy me, I was empty
I didn't know why, worse yet, didn't know I didn't know
I was so blind
that the obvious must be revealed by ultimate loss
That the multitude of wrongs made right should hurt so
take my eyes that did not see what I needed
That I see now, with eyes wide open
Black on white, blind on sight, hate on love
All the things I was is no more
what I am is simultaneously less and more
I rebuild what I tore down that I had built up that was nothing
I do this all for you
My friends, I thank you for the rare opportunity to express this part of me in a way that people understand. I live in a place (not necessarily geographically, but emotionally) where that sort of connection is not present. You know how I found this place? by typing random words in my search browser. I am so glad that I did. I am home.