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#2101 FallingStar

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Posted 27 November 2012 - 11:16 PM

standing in the same place

moving my feet forwards

but never seeming to get anywhere

trying to branch out

but the leaves stay curled inwards

aching for the sun to warm me from the inside out

feeling as though frost is settling in for a long winter

wanting the days to move on to better times

instead they only seem to slip by

Edited by FallingStar, 27 November 2012 - 11:17 PM.


#2102 FallingStar

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Posted 17 December 2012 - 09:56 PM

a bitter cold /
seeping into my bones /
leeching into my soul /
hoping it won't be permanent /
that it will thaw out once again /
no frostbite to numb my heart /
as the days grow shorter /
and the light doesn't penetrate /
sadness tends to sweep across /
the winter has finally come /
trying to hold onto hope /
even with my numb fingers

Edited by FallingStar, 17 December 2012 - 09:57 PM.


#2103 FallingStar

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Posted 20 December 2012 - 09:53 PM

with each beat of a dying heart /
with each breath misting in the air /
we are reminded that life is still here /
that wonders abound if you care to look /
that the sun's rays may be shorter /
and the days may be colder /
but life still pumps and thrives /
even through the long dark nights /
may the stars' glimmer not be faint /
but a bright beacon to herald us until dawn /
alone in a cold wasteland /
be reminded that we are not truly alone /
for another lies just a little way off /
saddened by their own solitude /
heart mending from being broken /
needing a new spark /
to bring it back to true life

Edited by FallingStar, 20 December 2012 - 09:54 PM.


#2104 Leven

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Posted 21 December 2012 - 04:19 PM

I like this a lot, even if my darker side screams out. Seems you have captured the essence of hope. Very nice 

~RIch


Edited by Ransom, 21 December 2012 - 04:20 PM.


#2105 FallingStar

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Posted 01 January 2013 - 01:16 AM

Happy New Year! Perhaps my muse will return in 2013.... one can always hope.

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Posted 15 January 2013 - 10:54 PM

why do words always end up getting jumbled
meanings misunderstood
simple things become complicated matters
for no reason that can be seen
what seems like something good
can fumble and be broken
with one little slip of the tongue

Edited by FallingStar, 15 January 2013 - 10:55 PM.


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Posted 24 February 2013 - 11:14 AM

ready for the pain
fearing it more as you wait
knowing it's inevitability
once it comes
it doesn't seem so bad
but the slow ache grows
feeds upon itself
a dullness to the sunshine
as it reaches for a peak
bruises will fade
swelling will go down
eventually the pain turns to memory
life does move on
one simply has to learn
how to keep that knowledge
and not be trapped
in the pain of current situations

Edited by FallingStar, 24 February 2013 - 11:15 AM.


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Posted 11 March 2013 - 07:23 PM

the bright sunshine of spring
is pouring through the open window
the air a warm caress
with only a tint of cool to make one smile
the birds have all awoken
the trees have started to bud
tiny green specks that speak of life
it's hard to not to be happy
as the world becomes alive

Edited by FallingStar, 11 March 2013 - 07:23 PM.


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Posted 31 March 2013 - 06:38 PM

fluttering in the breeze
dancing in the cold
moved without purpose
guided by a hand
the eyes cannot see
embraced by something more
like the glittering stars
that somehow sparkle in the dark
a light that never disappears
no matter how dim they appear
on a cloudy night

Edited by FallingStar, 31 March 2013 - 06:39 PM.


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Posted 14 April 2013 - 10:24 PM

old friends and new joys /
remembering the past and what once was /
looking to where everyone is now headed /
bright lights on the horizon /
things to be thankful for /
while looking back on sad farewells /
knowing that the future holds death /
along with the birth of new possibilities /
some friends seem as though no time has passed /
when in truth the weeks have turned to months /
but the test of a true friend /
is how quickly you can loose yourself /
in talking with each other

Edited by FallingStar, 14 April 2013 - 10:26 PM.


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Posted 21 April 2013 - 09:23 PM

as the summer sun grows in the sky /
and the wheels keep passing by /
I hear the birds singing a song /
and the hum of the city moving along /
the world is alive and breathing /
the mass of humanity constantly seething /
it is a good day to be alive /
one where everyone can simply thrive /

~~~~~~~~~~~

I don't normally rhyme... but every now and then....

Edited by FallingStar, 21 April 2013 - 09:24 PM.


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Posted 06 May 2013 - 09:55 PM

grey melancholy days

wanting to spend the whole time doing nothing

then guilt sets in when not being productive

yet everyone needs a moment for relaxation and reflection

only too afraid to reflect too deeply

trying to stay nonchalant

trying not to care

but the mind likes to work on overdrive

doesn't like to stop

so I stare out at the roiling clouds

watching the rain patter upon my window panes

wondering where my sunshine went

when these are supposed to be happy days

Edited by FallingStar, 06 May 2013 - 09:55 PM.


#2113 FallingStar

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Posted 08 May 2013 - 11:28 PM

a never ending war

between breaking down the walls

letting others see my true self

and building them back up again

afraid to be vulnerable

just as terrified not to

they say it is better to feel sorrow and pain

than to be soley numb

wanting to feel life whole heartedly

yet still terrified of watching that heart be trampled

I don't do well with not being in control

but sometimes the thing we want

is to let go

and hope that someone will be there to catch us

rather than let us fall

Edited by FallingStar, 08 May 2013 - 11:30 PM.


#2114 FallingStar

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Posted 13 June 2013 - 12:01 AM

Sometimes you have to let go. You can't control everything and sometimes what you think you want is not what you need. Sometimes you don't know what you need until it is thrown across your path. Call it fate or destiny or whatever you want.... but somehow things seem to end up the way they are supposed to. Worrying too much over little things doesn't bring you anything but headaches. Sometimes you have to let go, no matter how hard that is.

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Posted 05 August 2013 - 09:34 PM

Wandering through life, letting it pass me by. I take hold of what gets thrown in my path, but I never seem to reach out to grab anything. I live my life with no drive. It's become worrysome. The time-worn question plagueing my conscience once again: what could I have done if I simply tried? Scared of failure, so never stepping up to try. Perhaps not scared of failure... perhaps scared of never finding my passion. I let the monotony lull me to sleep. Rarely do I search for a new melody. Rarely do I press past my comfort zone. At times I want to. I want to become something magnificent. Something that would prove that my life held meaning and made a difference. Perhaps I AM scared of failure. Scared of knowing that no matter what I do, my life will have bled away and left nothing in its wake. One day I won't be able to think these thoughts and one day no one will remember my name or any shred of what I had done with the few years I was given. A sad thought that leaves a deep pit in my stomache.

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Posted 06 August 2013 - 09:06 AM

Seems we are part of the same creature, my dear. What of it, the future, our legacy, the present, the past, the uncontrollable little things that rack our minds ragged while they should bring reprieves as bright as the ever-fading reflections of our dreams. It's nothing more than another brick passed and mortared in the dead of night, sealing our fate.  

 

There is no advice or comfort I can give you, just the acknowledgement of what is, you are not alone in this, yet you are in the sense that matters. The east is no different from the west I suppose, keep fighting the good fight, and I hope you find your heaven here on earth, sooner rather than later. Much love, my dear old friend.

~Rich


Edited by Leven, 06 August 2013 - 09:12 AM.


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Posted 25 August 2013 - 09:53 PM

Heaven here on earth.... Yet what does heaven look like? What would be perfection if you could draw up your own blueprints.... create the perfect walls under the epitome of sky. How could one place be heaven when so many have varying degrees of what would make them happy. And what if the person who brings you the most joy, does not wish to name you as the same? Is one to forever be imprisoned in another's heaven while being stuck in their own hell? Would the sky be ever changing from sunshine to storm? For at a whim the rolling thunder could be magnificent, yet the next all that is wanted is sunshine and roses on a fresh simple breeze. What if only one could be chosen? Would perfection never truly be perfect? Or would one's mind be made dim so that the monotony of the same could be created and enjoyed? For I have found that while monotony can be comforting, it can also create boredom and a sense of urgency to break out and try something that might set you free. Oh how would one find heaven and would you really wish to be stuck there forever?



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Posted 19 December 2013 - 10:17 PM

Nothing here since August and I can see my post from the 2013 New Year on the same page, when we are only days away from 2014. I have no excuse for myself. Here is to hoping that I force myself to look inward again and find a way to write down my thoughts like I once did.

 

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"There are exactly as many special occasions in life as we choose to celebrate." -Robert Brault

 

I want to try and make as many reasons to celebrate as possible

from the tiny victories to the happiness I am afraid to accept

some things seem almost too perfect

yet I need to stop waiting for the other shoe to drop

things don't always have to be hard

sometimes the puzzle piece just fits

I need to stop looking at how much sand is left in the top of the hourglass

or rather how much air I see above it

I have the here and now

and I should learn to enjoy it

I don't have to scream or fight with tooth and claw

I just have to accept the joy of being held

sometimes life is full of small miracles