I have a problem at the moment, it doesn't worry me but it's seriously bugging me, niggling at my mind.
Now it's not a haunting issue or anything, it's the thought that they could exist, but i'll get to that in a few moments and instead begin with my experience and the experiences of some members of my family in a roughly chronological order. They're not particularly linked, it's just how my mind has organised them.
1. Before I was born, a good few decades ago, one of my great grandmothers was ill and confined pretty much to her house. She would talk about seeing things move, and a man in uniform. My dad once felt something move past his leg (she had no pets or anything) and once while my parents and some grandparents and other family were there a clock chimed that hadn't worked in years.
2. After my birth, one night my mother saw the figure of an old woman, who she thinks was one of her grandparents (possibly the one in the previous example who had since died) standing over my cot looking into it.
3. When I was very young, possibly 12 or 13, I woke up one night to find a figure standing at the head of my bed, roughly 5 feet in height. After spending about 15 minutes feeling paralyzed with fear I got to my light switch and turned it on, there was nothing there and my door was closed.
4. Since my grandmother died we've been finding 1 penny coins about the place, something she used to collect in a jar, The usual places you'd drop change like near the sofa and such I dismissed, but my mother found one in front of her gravestone. Until she tols the rest of my family about that, noone was aware we were finding them.
5. My aunt claims to experience happenings like things falling off of shelves, and candles lighting themselves as well as occasionally even talking to my deceased grandmother.
6. A second aunt (or some similar connection, extended family confuses me) who lives in Canada has recently told us that her son, about 3 years old, has told her about talking to a man. He then identified him in a photograph, and the man was his grandfather, who had died before he was born and had never met.
Now, I can make attempts to explain away a lot of it as chance, or dreams, or the head generally messing with senses. I could also say that they just see things because they want to, but my family tend towards skepticism.
And so we reach my problem. My mind is torn between believing and not. Even if I accept ghosts as existing, my mind screams at me asking what they are and what they're made of. I'm completely at a loss.
Does anyone else have an issue where evidence points to something that your mind is telling you can't be true?
Does anyone else have ghost stories that they REALLY believe?