... a vampire or werewolf? It truly baffles me, that whole thought process.
I am new to this forum but have been a member of many others and have seen them come and go. This forum though, seems to have been around a while and that is wonderful to see.
I am probably a bit older than many of you on this site but to look at me everyone guesses me 10 years younger. This is due to good genes, exercise, no smoking and vitamins. So, I have something I really want to say, a bit of advice, if you will:
First of all, I did go through an awakening process many years ago, and it was frightening, exhausting and it led me to some VERY dark places. But even in my darkest hour I was not alone. I was promised help and delivery from the evil that seemed to want me dead IF I left the darkness behind... which I gladly did. I have not returned to it since.
In the years since I have grown and learned a lot. I always read how people hate their life and feel that there is more and that they need to know and, and, and... so many reasons as to why they desire the life of a vampire or such. YES people, kids and young adults there is more and it is called life! That emptiness that most of you feel is a true feeling and it is sad but it can be so easily filled with GIVING. Give to the world... save a life... help another soul. Do something that makes a difference and you will soon see how that hole you were wanting to fill with darkness will be full of love and light.
Since I left my old ways behind, I have had the opportunity to deliver a baby to a drug mother and thus help save the life of the baby and mom (and not in a hospital) and my job allows to me help save lives and make a difference every day.
Plus many of you have not actually seen death... it is not even a bit glamorous. Plus, the people left behind... there are not words for that.
If immortal vampires do exist (and I believe that there may be one that I have spoken to on the net YEARS ago)... why would you want that? To outlive your loved ones... ALL of them... how lonely. And they must live in such privacy and secrecy... even more loneliness!
I love the night... I get more energy as the sun sets, and there are plenty of opprotunities to give, even at night.
So before you go falling for someone here (or anywhere) that seems all wise and smart because they can use big names and words from old and ancient religions, think about what is really eating at you... maybe talk to someone who has gone through the same thing, maybe get some professional help and then try even just one small act of kindness... see what it gets you. I mean, isn't it worth a try?
I know that life is not a bucket of roses and it is not always sunny... and of course I have thought about what I would do if I could live forever and I realized that I would continue to learn and learn... and with knowledge and education what change I could make over the long haul. But I am content to do what I can in this lifetime. Hopefully you can get there too!
Sorry, I hate grammar... tis not my best subject!