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[Ices]

They tell you I'm gone
Nothing lasts forever my dear
I hid my pain
My suffering.

I did my best to pave the way
To make it easier for you
My beloved child
I love you

You wont be sad long
It will come to pass
As your memories grow to a haze
I become just star dust,

As you go on
New stars are born
Nothing is made to last
My beautiful child.

The stars to come in your life
Husband,
Children,
and friends.

Hum the lullaby
If you feel alone
Or if you miss me
Stir up the star dust.

I'm here still
I'm looking over you
And your family
My family... I love you..I love you all.

[Ices]

You're curious of me
As I tell you
I have no husband
No boy friend
Nor children.

I force a smile on my face
As you tease me
If only you knew
I gave my heart away.

How hollow I feel
other emotions echo
within me
Loveless.

That is the word
The word that finds my lips
That finds its way
Tattooed over where my heart should be.

Sometimes I feel a fool
Like I was robbed
but other times...
I'm happy I gave him my heart.

Perhaps he is ment to have it
Even if we are apart
Even if another comes along for him
Inside I think apart of me will be happy it was him.

[livingdeadnat]

I love this piece. Especially the verse:


That is the word
The word that finds my lips
That finds its way
Tattooed over where my heart should be.

Edited by livingdeadnat, 30 July 2012 - 06:42 PM.

[Ices]

thank you so much

[Ices]

My world closing in
Chains binding me to the ground
Can I be good
Can I behave?

I been free so long...
Can I become acustom to the binds
Could I really love him?
Or am I just doing it to do it?

I feel hollow
Will that be differnet once he's here?
Will my fears subside?
Will I show my fangs?

So many questions play on my mind
Can you belong to just one?
Can I give the other playmates up?
Will I miss them once I do?

I must be excited for him...
Why else can I not sleep?
Then again...
It could be all the questions...
Running and running through my mind.

Shh.. be silent..Let go
You promised.. him
Don't run
Try like you promised
And I did promise...

[Ices]

His lips moist and soft
His hands strong and caressing
My skin shivering
Gasping for air.

Just ride baby
all he whispers
Arching my back
his hips thrusting up between mine.

Resting my hands on his chest
Digging my nails in
My sin..
Lust.. Adultry

Men that weren't mine
to take
I have taken...
I have tried being the woman...

I guess
I was just born to be the other one
The other woman
The destoryer...

I am free though
Free to love everyone
Yet belong to no one
Free to want everything
Yet have nothing...

I can't help but get into touble
I'm the whore
That their women hate.

My life like winter
The men in my life...
Are the only times it was warm
I had dreams once...

But thats over now
The madness in me
Runs free
And I let it go...

Our bodies un twists
we laid sprawled out
on a blanket
in the desert sand.

I'm tired of caring
Tired of the women
and what they say
so I'm drowing in sin.

Yet at that moment
When he whispered just ride
I'm finally free
I just rode.

To be wild
To have fun
Live fast
And die young.

Don't say good bye
Just go
I'm free now
I don't care anymore.

I can be as crazy as I wan to be
Ubound
Unchained
Unattached
Free...Forever

[Ices]

is it insanity
is it panic
is it selfish
is it sinful?

I've lost so much
How much more is their left to lose
How much of it will be gone soon
Will my mind survive it?

A larg part of me says..
It says no
But a small
severly small part says...
you have to.

Why do I have to?
Why can't i drown in grief
Let it soffocate me till...
till my very soul dies.

Why must I go on breathing?
Why am i desitined to stand alone
On my own
I'm too young..

I'm not ready for you to go..
You're my Dad...
Please don't leave me this soon
I wont have anyone
Once your gone
There will be no one left..

I don't think I can be strong enough
My mind undoes itself at the thought
Please don't leave me soon
I want you to live.

I want you to see your first grand baby
And see them grow
And be happy
We've lost so much in the last years..

I can't bear to lose eachother
Its not enough
Please be stong like I remeber you
Like I always will.

You were always there
You are my rock
Even if we are miles apart
You worry me so much.

I wish I was strong..
But I guess im not,

[Ices]

Sliced to ribbons
Suffering in silence
Slowly losing myself
I'm so pathetic.

Hidden in glass walls
While nside I shatter
Over and over
Please let me be numb.

I've lost my grip
Now I'm falling
No one to stop me
Will every bone be crushed?

Will the last of my humanity die?
Or has it already?
I'm as hard as glass
And shatter so easy.

Why was I chosen
Why me..
Do you think I'm that strong?
Because I'm not..

I'm a mess insde
Nothing but a storm constantly
Would you ever find my scars beautiful?
Or just a poor pathetic girl?

We all go through things
I'm tired of going through them
Theres hardly anyone left to care
So what does it matter
Why let myslf keep going through this
Over and over.

Edited by Ices, 24 November 2012 - 06:01 PM.