Posted 20 February 2010 - 05:47 AM
I was told I was an empath in a dream by a woman or someone who has helped me out a lot.
Bit of backstory, I was struggling to figure out just what the heck was wrong with me. I would mimic people's emotions. I had a healer work on me, his wife walked in the room and I felt immense love for her. I even said so. He just smiled at me.
A few days later I realised I only did that because I felt his emotions as though they were my own. And, it happens with everything. I pick up energy imprints, entities, other's emotions and really had to visit this healer about every 3 months to clean myself out, but now the healer has helped teach me to do this myself and I'm progressing.
I've been psychic ever since a near death experience as a teenager. I died and then was resurrected, like my spirit poured back into my body and it decided it didn't want to die yet. Over the years, this habit of picking up stuff has been an absolute curse. I'm sure other empaths know what I mean. You wake up one morning and can feel something is wrong, more than the normal sad inflections in someone's voice. You feel something on your back, in your energy as though you are living their lives now.
So, I've tried ignoring it. I've tried accepting it. Professional help with a healer was the best thing I ever did as I had some crap to bring out of me and make me stop being afraid of the terrible darkness I saw. It's not unusual for me to hear exactly what is wrong with someone. A person will come up to me and I'll hear what is wrong with them, sometimes the voice is so low I can barely hear, othertimes, it will be a picture or a reel like in a movie. I see the medicine to help in pictures, the problem more heard in words. The healer believes this is their spirit communicating and because I'm so sensitive, I pick it up.
When I ask a question I get answers. I see my own aura all the time, especially just before I'm about to fall asleep. I have consciously known myself as spirit outside my body and my body at the same time as well as ego, a three part being in sleep. I felt an entity move in my empty body and I went back down and pissed it off. I am in total control of this dimension and it has to respond to me and if it doesn't I can send it somewhere where it will never return. The healer taught me how.
Hellarchy, you did a wonderful job of describing just how like a chameleon empaths are. You are moody, we can feel it and will change our stance, tone of voice, word choice, facial features to go along the most harmonious route. Yet, again we can control others quite easily and know what to say and how to say it. To be honest and open about what we want, once we realise what that is, I find a challenge. Me, writing this now, I'm not trying to be anything other than honest.
I have chosen a life built around something else that I enjoy more. It's no fun being possessed by something. Even stuff that is alien. Not as in a skinny naked thing with funny eyes. But ET energy.
Sometimes, the sensitivity makes me more frustrated because I'm living picking up people's stuff but not living my own thoughts and emotions. For months I won't know what's happening and try to get out of it without thinking much about it, then I'll realise it's not me at all.
My dreams are pretty wild when I choose them to be. When I want to ask something etc. The woman who told me I was an empath also told me to go to the skin doctors and get my skin checked for my moles. I had one removed that the cells had changed and it was so tiny. Caught it before anything happened. She wears a doctor's jacket and at one stage I think she was trying to train me into helping people. I do help people. When I know someone is suffering, I show compassion and give them money to get help. I tell them what I see and hear (some will never believe me no matter how normal I am in real life) I advise them on medicine to take. I talk to them about the evolution of the soul. How to change bad circumstance and choose another experience.
I found a link a while ago that was interesting and described being an empath for me. Can't seem to find it now, but it talked of an empath's emotional intelligence and that the world we live in runs on logic/ ego intelligence. It was saying emotional intelligence is light years ahead of logicals. Emotion is based on the truth of feeling and that will guide you to your ultimate truth. Empaths are sensitive in other things as well, like they have sensitivity to food and are normally good cooks and can't drink milk from the fridge unless it's icy cold because it picks up odours from the fridge. They do well when younger in school, but as they age, they start going bad at academia because their emotional intelligence is their compass. The know the answer and have to backtrack every logical step for others while, empaths intuitively know the answer. Most of them work their way backwards from answer to problem so they don't get bad marks. It said how empaths are prone to weight gain and negativity because we start to not trust our emotions and learn to value what they tell us and when that happens we lose confidence and confidence in our emotions is the one thing that saves us.
It's good to meet others who know what's it's like. I try not to focus on it anymore unless I have to or unless I hear something where someone is sick or needs my help. I can cure myself and have done so many times after trusting what I saw. My family also try my remedies and they work for them too.
I think that's why the doctor in the robe appeared to me. She was a very busy woman, too. It's like she had many spirits there to talk to. She sat down at a desk, I asked the question and she wrote it on a piece of paper and turned it around to show me. I woke up.