Hell on Earth
Darkness has fallen upon this land,
the sun extinguished by an outstretched hand.
Everything has fallen into darkness and despair,
He no longer hides in his firey lair.
Now this evil can walk our ground,
the silence broke by a deafening sound.
He doesn’t have a voice more like a scream;
I would do anything to say it’s just a dream.
Now here in our world evil does dwell,
this is no longer our world this is hell.
True Passions
Time is simply fading away,
here in darkness on my bed I lay.
The clock ticks the minutes past,
this sea of black is thick and vast.
Here I feel safe from the people out there,
Hidden safe from the people who don’t care.
They don’t care about the pain they cause,
its all about these fashion wars.
They don’t like what they don’t understand,
they don’t like that gothic rock band.
They don’t like it so it isn’t there,
ignore me, really, I don’t care.
So obsessed by the way that you look,
Sitting with your friends and your little black book.
In the outside world it’s all about fashion,
here in my room it’s my inner passion.
Lost Faith
Heaven has forsaken me my soul is going to hell,
Hiding in the shadows in darkness I dwell.
My dammed soul is screaming in pain,
my aching heart calls out in vain.
A mind that is racing searching for a release,
looking for a way out and looking for peace.
This is it the end of my life,
an end to all the worries heart-ache and strife.
Is it really over is this all there is?
Destined for that eternal hell of his.
Fire surrounds my sight I can’t see,
Please release me set my soul free.
I open my eyes and see a bright blazing sun,
I get to start again a new life has begun.
Still I sit here knowing i'm doomed and like a mad woman I yell,
you sent me back here just to be dragged back to hell.
Another life filled with lies and pain,
Somehow I’ll have to find my faith again.
I cant do it anymore
I cant enter back to this world
This world of pain and hurt
The blackness inside my mind
Driving me mad
Wishing I had died.
Falling deeper into despair.
Falling deeper into the wells of my black heart.
Being dragged under to a place I can’t breathe.
Bringing back the mental torture of the years passed.
The world needs to die,
Either that or me.
Oh heavenly father set me free.
Tortured soul
Now finally i’m on my own,
No-one else just me alone,
Forever amazed by what I see,
My peace comes when I turn the key.
Into my room with my music blaring,
Where no-one cares what the hell i’m wearing,
A release of pain is getting a blade and starting to drag,
I don’t feel the pain so ill just have a fag,
Soon there’s an empty bottle in my hand,
I’m off on my own in my own little land.
I slip into a dark well of mud,
Open my eyes and realise its blood,
Its mine, i’m bleeding, the blade must have slipped,
Across the my wrist now my vain has ripped.
I shout for help but no-ones there,
Death is coming for me does anyone care?
Oh god it hurts and my sheets are red,
I gingerly push myself from my bed.
Pull open the door and I’m not at home,
I look around and I’m not alone.
Manically shouting and running around,
I stumble and trip but don’t hit the ground.
Opening my eyes there’s someone here they must have head me call,
Two people hole my wrists my back against the wall.
Five years later my scars serve a constant reminder,
the girl who sat on my bed is dead.....I buried her.
Moving on
Darkness has fallen its all that I see,
Bound and chained never to be free,
All this torture and all this pain,
Struggling to be free in vain.
Exhaustion runs through my mind,
my sanity is lost, this I can’t find,
My body too broken there’s no more to break,
Now my mind up I must make.
How to get on with all this strife,
How to move on and live my life.
Emptiness
A cold heart and an empty soul,
More then anything I long to be whole,
Regardless of what I say,
I cant keep thoughts of death at bay,
A troubled past haunts my head,
I hate the life that I have lead,
My style is different my mind unique,
My insanity, my madness is at its peak,
This whole body feels all the pain,
For all of this all I feel is shame,
My future uncertain its coming fast,
Why cant I get over it? Just forget my past.
Heaven & Hell
I’m quickly falling from the sky,
Away from the peace from way up high,
I was too quickly judged and tried,
I know to take failure in my stride,
I failed in death as I failed in life,
I know all about worry and strife,
Through it all was worry and hate,
My life was just one big debate,
I hate you all cant you see,
These feelings I have bottled inside of me,
Human flesh burning strong is all I smell,
I've finally hit the bottom I know I’m in hell.
Days Gone By
One heart broken,
Harsh words spoken,
Lies deceit things done wrong,
The memories of days long gone,
The pain always stays it never goes,
The one day it all shows,
It takes over your mind you cant think,
You takes some pills white, blue or pink,
Everything hurts all you want to do is die,
My dear friend its the past it days gone by.
Hello Death
Sweet red nectar flowing from your vain,
Pain and screaming in your brain,
Cant you see your dying, praying,
Your body is bleeding, your screaming,
Your blood is the wine i’m tempted to drink,
Who are you your voice drives me to the brink,
Your death will be my victory ill win,
Hey guess what that’s the grim reaper say hi to him.
Its Not The Music
You blame the music you blame a song,
All your lies take so long,
You made a stupid mistake you'll pay soon,
YOU stabbed that nun, NOT Marilyn Manson,
Plead insanity yes your mad,
Its not the music that turned your child bad,
So people sing of death of drugs,
What do you want kisses and hugs?
So music opens up your mind,
did it put your child in the bars their behind?
No you didn’t just stop and think,
Music is your missing link.
Freedom
Am I mad or am I insane,
There’s strange things running through my brain,
Love is madness, madness is love,
such a torture sent from above,
Is there a hell is there a heaven?
I've been asking this since I was eleven,
Life is life when it ends no one knows,
When our life is over who knows where our sprit goes,
So here I am being me,
I’m growing, learning, living free.
Raindrops falling from the sky,
Tears of heaven from way up high,
Snow as white as angels wings,
All these precious beautiful things,
One child lost sitting on his cloud,
Watching his mother his face so proud,
Don’t cry for me as i’m still here,
I'll always love my mummy dear.
I dreamt I fell into a bottomless well,
Where nothing but evil dare to dwell,
My fear of life corrupted my head,
Disturbing dreams while I lay in bed,
The fires of hell consumed my soul,
Leaving an empty black screaming hole,
Then I woke to a bright beaming sun,
Although I know life is far from done,
Fire still burn bright and loud,
While screams belt from an on looking crowd,
For when I dreamt of this bottomless well,
I found I was dreaming of earth of hell.
One thing shining beautifully bright,
like stars that twinkle in the night,
Sparkling shinning filled with love,
who is this angel from above?
Innocent eyes and an angelic smile,
Beautiful voice heard from a mile,
Sitting up high on his cloud in the sky,
Singing his song of 'who am I'?
It’s an angel sitting on his cloud,
this ill shout out loud and proud,
my guardian angel watches me,
if you had him too how lucky you would be.
These thoughts running in my head,
Images I see of myself i’m dead,
They say your going insane that’s what it would be,
But no its not its just me,
I have been this way for many years,
I gave up on myself and those Childs tears,
I’m trapped in this world with nowhere to go,
My heart like my feelings sank so low,
Cold as ice and hard as stone,
I’m not the person that was once known,
Loved and cherished held up high,
Until that day my dad said bye,
I crashed and burned gave up then and there,
Then came the make up and the black hair,
He now tells me it was for the best you know,
Fuck off you cunt go be with your hoe!
This whole family fell apart at the seams,
Dad you broke my heart, you shattered my dreams.
I am who I am though who I am means shit to you,
so the true person hiding inside is who?
The truth be told, you don’t know,
Be who you are and let it show,
Come and show me the person you really are,
Not that slut begging at a bar,
I’m not a fashion judge,
My beliefs on life will not budge,
Why try to be someone your not?
You'll burn in hell, hope you like it hot.
Love is hidden and never shown,
Life a flower beaten by winds strong blown,
Take a life make it your own,
True feelings for all should be shown,
Like a beautiful bird flying so graceful so high,
Stretching its wings to touch the sky,
For contempt for all feelings is only mine,
Look to life and love divine,
For love that’s hidden and never shown,
Is all from a heart that’s never grown.
I will always be never ending,
Like a fairy tale that’s always bending,
Life seems to have funny ways,
Dreams gently push your cares at bay,
My life is a story never that same,
Don’t make me do it all again,
My inspirations are my friends,
In my head these words I bend,
My friends mistakes I will be mending,
Now you see why I must be never ending.
Flowers growing in the ground,
Listen now you'll hear the sound,
Summer comes and summer goes,
Seasons change you emotions flows,
Frost over takes the trees,
Like a fight that brings you to your knees,
My words will change my pen writes murder,
My hand feels it can go no further,
A writers mind filled with words,
Feelings never shown words never heard,
I’m just a girl my mind incomplete,
I await the ground to hit my feet,
For now these words I know you mumble,
While I write I stop and stumble,
I need time and room to grow,
We all need space for our emotions to show.
I am just human simple and pure,
As hard as I try I find no cure,
Life is here to live,
Not to take but to give,
My friends and my family I love you,
You have helped my up when i've been blue,
Do you see happiness in the further for you?
Forget your past your future is bright, its true,
This is my promise I send to you,
I'll help you do anything you want to,
You are the reason i’m still here,
My best friends I hold you dear,
For my friends who have helped my so,
To you I give everything I cant say no.
Eternal me
As I sat there shrouded in self-hatred,
I hoped if I looked out the window they would all be exterminated,
I walk downstairs and open the door,
I can see them scurry looks like there’s more,
In to my that room I dared to go,
Being who am I and letting it show,
Then they pushed me into the depths of hell,
Where my immortal soul was left trapped inside this human shell,
The fiery walls burn bright and strong,
Is this where I belong?
Destined to spend eternity down here,
I don’t know if its excitement or fear,
Something inside me feels like its churning,
As I look at the walls so brightly burning,
I close and then open my eyes and turn to see,
The devil himself stand in front of me,
'Your pitiful soul is now mine' his voice rang like a church bell,
'Welcome to my humble home my dear, welcome to hell',
My breath is short my chest is tight,
I try to fight him with all my might,
nothing helps its all useless I cant beat this demon standing here,
He laughs as my whole body is consumed by fear,
This is it, this is what its to be,
This is the end of an eternal me.
In all my life I never knew,
A friend as caring and loyal as you,
You showed me happiness you showed me love,
As beautiful and pure as a white dove,
I wish you happiness in all that you do,
You help me forget all the things I have been through,
Now its time for my life to end,
I cant do it I cant pretend.
With this life you took from me I try to piece it together,
I feel I cant take anymore I feel it will take forever,
Breaking down my defensive walls you knew how to get inside,
I didn’t know how to cope with it I had to run and hide,
Battered and beaten my body bleeds,
Seeing me cry fulfilled your needs,
Laying broken on a bed of nails,
You took my soul my defence fails,
All I know is that my sanity drains fast,
I have to get over this my hated tortured past.
The scent of death the scent of decay,
Lingers in the air of may,
Rotting flesh and mildew rise,
Fogging your sight from your eyes,
I smell your fear as you move closer to your dream,
You fear you'll fail do you smell the steam?
The smell of your rotting flesh makes me sick,
but it’s only your mind playing a trick.
For every dawn a new sun rises,
Every full moon brings the best of surprises,
The sun sends waves of heat that sliver,
While the moon does shine on the glistening river,
The rulers of the sun that helps us grow,
The rulers of the moon makes our emotions show,
My dreams become a reality when I’m awake,
For when I’m asleep my life is at stake.
Do I have to kill myself to feel safe?
I don’t want to be like them, their slave.
Why must this insanity go on?
Why is this road in life so long?
Burning in hell I can’t take this heat,
I have to quickly get off the street.
I just want to be on my own,
No people, no light, no phone.
Dragging me out of the darkness into the light,
the bright burning sun distorts my sight.
I’m fighting this but still imp screaming,
in this sun that’s brightly beaming.
Leave me alone I shout out loud,
I am who I am and for this i'm proud.
I crawl back in to my dark corner and sit in silence;
I don’t want to go back to that violence.
They just kill everything in sight,
so I’ll fight this with all my might.
I'll be who I am for all eternity,
Because this is who I am, this is me.
The angels flew down and took you away,
You know we will think of you every day,
As a true friend you we will miss,
Now your freedom will bring you bliss,
Here is a drink to you our friend,
The whole you left no one can mend.