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apologies blushing madly

I fear I allowed myelf near the computer when I should have remained isolated.

I am under control now. I do wish the classicals section was still "up and running" for I am uncomfortable really discussing this and other issues elsewhere.

I am still in withdrawals but am able to think

I still seek advice on the matter.

Why would you be uncomfortable. That doesn't make too much sense. The classicals section was still accessable to everyone, being merged doesn't make a difference, in fact I should think that you would get more help now. What all have you tried for quick fixes until you can feed?

Meditation, subsitututes (they help my Host but not me), distraction, drinking my own blood is destructive and I NEVER try it.

I was able to astral for a brief moment and have "settled" somewhat. I fear this is a long term problem now. http://forum.darkness.com/index.php?showtopic=31834 and I simply must develop new ways to "deal".

My discomfort with the merge stems from my knowledge that HLV's and, pardon for this, uhmmmmm humans are resistant to the very concept of my ilk. I was more comfortable in a forum designed for us...... where people coming into it were fully cognizent of what they were about to encounter.

My paranoia is screaming bloody murder.

I am going to attempt to reign in my paranoia and continue to discuss my nature. Should I be unable to do this, I shall participate in generalized threads and discussions.

Ah I am having to edit and re-edit for I am too bothered to be able to type coherently and am making multiple typos. Is there somewhere I could access a spellcheck?

This forum is designed for you, all of you.

We won't accept any flaming, accusations, rudeness, ridiculing, or any other uncanny behaviour. If anyone says anything that makes you feel uncomfortable, please let the admins know (by using the "report" button) and we'll look into it.

Think of this as an extended classicals section. It's open for all kind of vampires, no matter how they classify themself. Just keep an open mind.

:)

Have you tried going with a doctor, normal or psichiatrist.

I used to have the same problem, at the end I knew it was just me (my thoughts) and nothing else.

Aye. Have been to many doctors in the 70's and 80's, physical and mental. They cannot explain my symptoms. Of course these tests only denote my HOST'S condition. The only chronic abberation in bloodwork is a low CBC. sigh.

I have been for DID/MPD (multiple personality disorder) for that is the only RATIONAL explanation for my "condition", for my existance. The doctors accept that I am an alter for anything further is intolerable, yet this does not explain the abilities and returning memories. Doesn't explain that most people i speak with sense me and many see me in their minds. As my own flesh, not akyras, and are able to describe me in detail. The picture I have in my profile is one sent to me by a donor so I could know myself.

My existence is a massive question mark until those memories return.

I have been contemplating playing HLV again. However, I am bloody tired of that. Hence I shall speak as myself and risk it, dealing with the consequences.

Thankee kindly Clearwitch smiles warmly

I have been to many Doctors of varying lines of work as well... My condition (and many similar throughout my family) are unexplained. My mother is the study of some famous neurologist in Canada right now, I can get the name if anyone wants it. It's funny how medicine has very few answers for things.


DID/MPD? Isn't MPD called Borderline Personality Disorder? My aunt has it, as well as schizophrenia.




You mean a place where there were more of you than the others, so you could team up on the outsider/challenger. Also a place where you got special treatment and protection to spread your 'words'.

No offense intended. I just think that these things you claim, are equally true of yourself(ves) on the other end. You hold the same predjudices (in calibre) going the other way. We must all try to keep an open mind.



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[quote=ReVamp3d,Mar 9 2005, 09:23 PM]
puts on thinking cap for this one...

I have been to many Doctors of varying lines of work as well... My condition (and many similar throughout my family) are unexplained. My mother is the study of some famous neurologist in Canada right now, I can get the name if anyone wants it. It's funny how medicine has very few answers for things.
----------doctors "practice". Which indicates that they haven't gotten it "right" yet.

DID/MPD? Isn't MPD called Borderline Personality Disorder?
--------------nay. MPD is Multiple Personality Disorder. Very specific..an axis I disorder.. Borderline is a, thinking, axis II disorder......... a "personality" disorder. There is no correlation. BPD is characterized by black and white thinking. Which sounds like me. laughs painfully

My aunt has it, as well as schizophrenia.
---------BPD often coexists with other illnesses.... a common malady

You mean a place where there were more of you than the others, so you could team up on the outsider/challenger. Also a place where you got special treatment and protection to spread your 'words'.
------------deep calming breaths. Consider this......... imagine being taken to task for any discussion of your nature. I have been shunned and banned for mentioning it. Never until now have i discussed it. I am paranoid. I have jiustification for this. Team up on a challenger? Do I really seem like that kind of person? Spreading my "words"? I fear I am unclear as to your meaning here. Do you refer to speaking of myself or do you think I have an agenda. I am deeply saddened that I have come across as the type of person to team up on a person and carry an agenda. sighs. I shall meditate on this.

No offense intended. I just think that these things you claim, are equally true of yourself(ves) on the other end.
--------shakes head. I fear i am not following again. Thinking. Are you referring to my paranoia? To my allegations about my nature? Please elaborate. I am not "tracking"

You hold the same predjudices (in calibre) going the other way.
---------this is indeed so. For I am as irrational and emotional an individual as any other.

We must all try to keep an open mind.
--------------indeed. I am an old codger. I must remember this.