I wanted to post two of my poems that I posted at fanfiction.net. I use the first one as my signature too. Here they are:
Why?
Why must my life be this way?
I live in darkness.
I can’t see the light.
I am blind to all things good.
All I see are the evil things.
I am engulfed in the cold.
The warmth of you does not reach me.
You extend your hand out to me,
But I won’t take it,
Because it comes from pity.
My life is good for those like me,
Yet it seems so horrible to you.
Why must you try to interfere with my life?
Does my existence upset you?
Please tell me your reason.
You stay silent as I ask you these questions.
You try to keep me from knowing your true intentions.
I have to look deep into your soul to find what you are hiding.
I regret finding that you want to change me.
I told you that I can’t be changed!
Why is it that nobody listens to me?
Are you all deaf to my wishes?
Why must you always act this way?
I am who I am.
You, of all people, can not change that.
Just leave me in peace.
And heed this one warning,
Do not try to change me,
For if you do,
The consequences will be great.
Lost in my Own Mind
It seems that I will forever live in a different realm from all others.
Why must it be this way?
These books I read, they’re all so real.
I’m afraid that I might lose myself in them,
Yet, I can’t stop myself from reading.
I read to keep myself alive.
Why is it that I can’t live in reality?
My heart pains at the thought of this world.
The books I read are so perfect,
Yet they are not.
My mind is racing at so many thoughts.
I can’t contain my emotions.
What would happen if I suddenly burst?
Would they think I’m crazy?
Of course they would,
And they already do.
Why must this world be so complicated to those like me?
If only I could live my life in peace,
But no, I will never be able to.
I’m trapped forever in my sorrow.
Please, leave me to my books,
Even though they might one day leave my mind in shatters.
I shouldn’t mind it so much, you know.
For I am trapped,
Trapped,
Trapped forever in my sorrow.