i haven't been on here in a really long time so i thought i would pt my poems in a new thread. enjoy and opinions are welcome. Sorry about the misspelling in some of them.
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this sickness that mackes me want you, this sickness that mskes me love you'brings me to my knees and i be you please
love me
this sickness is killing me
as i see the blood pour from your intials
i know you could not perfill my dream
for simpley you don't love me.
i breth foryou, i cling to you
i would do what ever you asked.
i can't stand this any more
youare all i adore
i can't see anyone else
i'm dead to you it seems
but theres always that glimer of hope
that keeps me going
one day you'll see exactly who i am
then we'll be happy again
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BOOM
walking down the street
wondering alone
no place to go
no place to be
not feeling wanted
not really careing
but always crying,
for these things
that don't make sense
love, geed,tears. joy , anger and hate,
all these things'
can't be explained.
yet we have them in this god forsakenworld
that non of us really belong.
Everyone has there issues' but no one helps each outher
i care nothing for this fucking world
so i'll run from it
i put the pistal to my head, BOOM! i'm dead
>>>>>>>>>>>>
I hate how you drive me crazy,
I hate how every thing is always so hazy.
You make sure things are crazy,
Why you do, it’s all fading.
I hate the way you look when you’re mad
I hate the way you look when you’re sad.
You make things so painful
That’s not even a mouth full
I hate when you don’t call,
I hat when you’re a dog.
But I guess I can’t change you
But that’s a thing I could never do
Even though I hate everything you do
I still love you.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Life must go on,
Now that your gone.
I could never change all the lies,
Not even to save my own life.
I tried to make things work,
But it was you who was the jerk.
Now that things are done,
I’ll will move on.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I finally know it’s true
Every thing I thought about you
Every thing I hoped you were is true
Your heart your eyes
Even your cries is exactly what I saw through my eyes.
Now things aren’t such a blur.
I can see your misery
I can see your pain
I can see that every thing will
Never be the same
I can’t believe that you’re actually real
It seems as if I’m caught in a wheel
Of disbelief that is
To see your face to feel your embrace it all seem so fake
Like a fantasy that
Brings the to me in a sea of oh so sweet dreams.
But your here and real and I can feel you. Not a dream not a fantasy
But reality.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Blood tears fall from you eyes,
Witch have seen such demise.
Your eyes cry involuntarily,
As you scream for your mommy.
You don’t understand this torturous pain,
But it comes like a fright train.
There’s so many things that you could have done,
But now you’ll never see the light of the sun.
You cry for me to stop your hurt,
But you stomped on my heart.
So now that you’ll be gone,
My world will live on.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
It seems things are working out
Things are going better with out a doubt
There’s only one thing that is wrong
And that’s the fact that it’s been so long
It’s been so long scenes IV seen you last
Now I know this has to last
For the simple reason that if it shale not
That we will die from being apart.
It has come down to this my love
For if you leave me with out love
A wrath so great comes from above.
My love my darling
I hold you so dear
So please I ask you
You must stay near
Because now that your here
I could never let go
With out so many tears.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
This is where your wrong my friend
So blind to what has been
So blind to the pain you’ve caused
So now I have a cause
I have a cause to show you the real me
Instead of just what you see
For you have to see
The inside of me
Or you will never understand why I died.
I died for you
When all went askew
When everything got fucked up
When everything got turned up
When they found out that you were the one to blame
I twisted it and played so many games
I loved you enough but you could not see
How it was so rough all on me.
Now I’m dead because of you
Even now I still love you.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>..
An immortal loneliness
To many thins to see,
To many people to meet,
To much to deiced,
Just enough to make me want to die.
1234 so many boys I adore,
1 hurt me with another,
2 I was dumb and dumped em,
He wouldn’t give me the time of day,
4wouldn’t knock on my door.
1 would never except me,
2 would run away,
3 would avoid me,
4 just wouldn’t risk it.
1 is a drug attic and sexy as hell,
2 is a straight a student who would never give me hell,
3 is exactly like me but doesn’t understand,
And 4 likes me but wouldn’t because of the color of my skin.
Why must I fall in love with these mortals and fell the pain of Wt all?
It’s twice as worst for me because,
I have twice as long.
I wish I was an animal and none of this existed.
Domed to spend eternity alone,
With out some one to hold.
And now I suffer till all my lives are over and done with
Till then all immortals suffer an immortal loneliness.
This lingering feeling won’t go away
It haunts me every day
It haunts me every night
This just ain’t right
If only this feeling would have never struck me
I would be happy.
But I’m not
This feeling controls, me and my life
It controls what I do
This feeling is for you.
You don’t feel the same and you
Never will.
This feeling you ask what is it, what could it be?
Isn’t it obvious what you mean to me?
This feeling is love of course
How could you be so blind?
Or are you playing with my heart and mind
This is out of control.
Love controls me.
Why?
I’ll never know.
done
You said you would and you did,
And yet you still get shit,
From people all around you.
And everything is crazy,
Now everything is hazy,
From the pot and drinking,
You did at the party,
Now six pr seven,
Girls say they’re having your baby.
Now me your girl friend,
Doesn’t know what to do.
I sit and wonder about you.
You put me through so much,
Shit. Now I’m here to say,
You can go away,
I was board with you any ways,
You were just like the last one,
Brain less and dumb.
Yeah go beat on those stupid drums
Because I’m done.
A sadness I can’t control,
Swept over me this morn.
No sense in living through tomorrow,
Just too much sorrow.
So now I tack a short orange weir,
Down the basement steps.
Preparing to take a my fall,
For now the weir is around my neck.
Don’t tack the blame for my misery,
It all came from me.
Now I’m finally ready to leave this world.
My foots off the chair.
When I hear the front door slam.
Damn
Failed again.
It’s seems I’m completely stuck,
Completely stuck to you.
My heart was in a billion pieces,
and you put I back together with glue.
Now I feel I’m in debt,
I’m in debt to you
For what you did,
you didn’t have to do.
We fell in love with vengeful hearts,
And now we can’t be torn apart.
We don’t know why,
We fell to each other,
But were stuck like glue,
me and you.
This time to say good bye,
I won’t tack any more lies.
You said you loved me,
But you couldn’t tell me why.
You said you cared,
but you weren’t there,
when I needed you the most,
I don’t mean to boost,
But I deserve the most ,
And you just didn’t float my boat.
Now pack your things,
and get out of my sight,
Before I barfe from the smell that ain’t so tight.
You need to tack a shower or two,
Before another girl even gets close to you.
You are gonna wish you treated me right,
But instead you had to fight.
So now I say goodbye for good,
And go back to my own neighborhood.
Time and time again,
I have to pretend,
That you never passed me by,
Pretend we never kissed,
Pretend it was a dream,
That I truly miss.
I used to think of you 24/7,
But now it seems you’re in heaven,
No were near me,
Not even close,
I wish you were here next to me,
And not out of place.
It seems I’ve lost you in space.
You’re so close to me,
Yet so far away.
Come home to me,
were you belong.
So these salty tears,
Will be gone.
Hurting on the inside
Hiding it behind a smile
Hurting
You can see it in my eyes
Wanting to die
You can fell it seeping through my skin
Cutting
A way to seize the pain
Crying
The way to make me feel better
Loved
The way I wish I felt
Friends the way they make me smile
Smileing
The way I hide my pain
Hurting
The way I feel inside
This was written by an ald find of mine that I looked up to till she decided to throw her life away for a guy. It’s a sad story.
One aver here
One over there
I sit in the middle as the both stare
The one on my right is sweet and nice
The one on my left is smart and bright
I don’t know which to chose
But if I don’t chose now
I will lose all around
The one ask me what I like
The other talks to me all night
It seems for some that the answer is clear
But not for me
It bring me to tears
I don’t know who to chose
But if I don’t
I will lose all around.
The time has come this is it
I chose who
You guessed it it’s you.
My grades are falling,
My friends are fed up,
Everything is so fucked u.p
Mom is mad,
And dad is gone,
And I feel like shit,
So why should I go on,
So I run up to my room and listen to rock,
Whish'en the day would in or I would rot.
Now I weep,
With a knife at hand.
But I have no courage to put it all to an end.
So every day is a living hell.
Now I’m no more. I was killed in the grocery store.
I’m free
In the depths of darkness I’m left with despair.
No smiles no laughter,
Only hatred and disaster.
Everyone crying no one caring.
No safe place to go.
So what’s next is death.
Only despair and darkness nothing left to save me.
Death is now out of reach.
So I will stay here in the depths of darkness along with despair.
Love is like a lemon drop, sweet and tasty at first you think you want more until it turns sour. You want to spit it out but you don’t in the hopes it will be sweet again. But it never is and it eventually dissolves and it doesn’t matter any more.
This is one of the first poems I worte. I called it metaphor.
I descend down the mountain as a darkens comes over me.
I heard a wolf howl and a twig snap just like me.
Embrace silence as it falls on me like a blanker.
One that wants to kill me.
I cry out for help but can’t get what I need.
I’m trapped now in a dungeon of memories.
One full of heat and fear,
Ones all to near.
If only I could reach out to you and make you care,
But no ones there.
This darkness will kill me if the blanket doesn’t first.
I feel everyone’s plotting against me.
Why must I fell,
They want to kill.
Now I’m dying a painful death.
One so slow my bodies rotting before me.
OK this is it I’m going to die now.
But what about my friends and family.
I realize it too late.
I realized they loved me and now I’m finally dead.
With only one regret,
Not loving back
It always seems to happen to me,
Death and tragedy.
My father screwed me by not paying child support,
My mother killed me by calling me a stupid dork.
I’ll die if this shit don’t end,
It’s all a tear that I can’t mined.
Its all a matter of time before it’s all over,
It’s only a matter of time before I’m dead.
Every one tacks me for granted,
That’s one big mistake.
I wish everyone would leave me alone for there own sack.
It’s all a matter of time before it’s over,
It’s only a matter of time before I’m gone.
I’m going insane and don’t know if I’ll survive it.
Wish I’d get killed,
So it would over and done with.
It’s all a matter of time before it’s all over
It’s only a matter of time before I’m dead
Rocky past,
Unsure future,
Live today,
Die tomorrow,
Happiness today,
Heartbreak tomorrow,
Life is a roller costar that you can’t avoid riding. Some hate others love it either way the ride ends some time
You’re blind until you see it,
See it with your own eyes.
All the crime and tragedy that follow me.
See a whore on the corner trying to make a sail,
See a boy only six walk alone,
See a drug deal go down in front of your home.
And yet some still can’t see.
Trapped in your own little worlds worrying about what you’ll, where to fit in.
You need to open your eyes to what’s around you.
Help that whore fix her life,
Get that boy home,
Stop that drug deal from going down in front of your home.
I’m not blind to these things and yet so many are.
Can you see the crime and tragedy following me?
Or are you to blind to see.
I cry because you hurt me,
I’ll die because you weren’t there.
You didn’t know how to handle me,
And you certainly didn’t care.
Now I’m ready to let the blood pour ,
For all your lies.
I'll cry no more,
As I shut the door.
I’ll die silently,
because use you weren’t there for me.
As the sun sets,
And the moon rises as,
I lie her in the twilight,
Looking up at the sky,
And all I can think about is you.
You and your pretty face,
You and your warm embrace.
It took me completely by surprise,
Until this night ,
I would have never realized,
That it was you on my mind.
And now I’m held by your eyes.
You’re the friend I secretly love.
And now I sit here and look above,
And wonder how it came to be.
Was it me from the beginning?
Or did you do this to me.
Will I ever know?
Will you ever care?
I wonder now in a chair.
All these questions go through my mind,
And they’re all about you.
You are my love,
You are my drug,
I get all I need with just one hug.
Your sweet kiss,
I couldn’t stand to miss,
I would be stuck in a far away mist.
Now that you see,
that this was meant to be,
It being just you and me.
Together forever,
Held by a tether,
That’s soft like leather.
This poem is from the heart,
It will always be.
From beginning to start.
We’ll never grow apart,
As long as this love don’t grow tart.
Tell me
What is that?
You see
Through my eyes
And tell me is it what you wanted to find
It seems that you’ve noticed me looking
Now your looking back and I want you to
Tall me
What it is that?
You see
Through my eyes
And tell me is it what you wanted to find.
It took me a whole year
To make you look in
To these eyes that so many dispyse
So I need you to
Tall me
What it is that?
You see
Through my ayes
And tell me is it what you wanted to find
Tell me
What is that?
You see
Through my eyes
And tell me is it what you wanted to find
It seems that you’ve noticed me looking
Now your looking back and I want you to
Tall me
What it is that?
You see
Through my eyes
And tell me is it what you wanted to find.
It took me a whole year
To make you look in
To these eyes that so many dispyse
So I need you to
Tall me
What it is that?
You see
Through my ayes
And tell me is it what you wanted to find.
There’s something takes a part of me,
Makes me cry out your name.
When I see your face I hide inside.
Why must we play these game of torment’ torture and pain.
I hid because I’m scared of you,
I cry because you make me weak,
You play these games with me.
It hurts to see you hurt.
She made you way too weak.
I know deep down you know exactly what I’m saying.
Why must we play these games any longer?
Why can’t we do what feels right?
You hid because you’re sacred of me,
You cry because she made you weak.
I play these games with you.
These games we play are true,
But who do they hurt me or you?
I love,
I hate,
You hurt,
You tack,
Nothing I could do,
Nothing I could say,
Could make things the right way.
You created this pain of mine,
You even took my pride,
Now it’s time to fix this mess,
Time for your pain,
Time to tack your pride,
For all the times you made me cry.
Now pay your last respects,
Because you know whet to expect.
As you place the razor to your wrist,
And stab with a final twist.
All I ever felt for you was love and you loved me in your own fucked up way. You hurt me that day. You know the one when you called me a lying bitch or was it the one when you beat me. I never asked for much just for you to be there for me, but you weren’t. When I was younger I was blind to what you were. Back then you were my hero that never let me down and was always around. Now I’m older and Iv opened up my eyes and I’m glad you’re out of my life. I begged mom not to go after you. She listened when I begged please. If you wanted to see me so bas you should have at least called. I called many times but you were never home. Always out with a new woman or buying new clothes. You lost me a long time ago when you decided to beat mom. You last me when you hit my stepbrother in front of me. You lost me when you didn’t call to say you weren’t coming. You could have gotten back in my life if you wouldn’t of screwed up so many time. You say your only human and they make mistakes. Well you made to any and now it’s too late. You lost me when you decided to smoke crack. You lost me when you decided to have a screaming mach. You lost me when you decided to leave me with the neighbor. You lost me a long time ago which is no longer a fog. I don’t have any good memories of you and me. Always screaming and beating till we bleed.
It scare me how much the government sees. They can force me to be beat and cry out and never get what I need. I don’t need to do that any more because you’re out of my life because you lost me
You lost me for good.
When you did me wrong, did mom wrong, did every one who ever cared for you wrong. And now look at you doing what you can for another hit. You finally got caught and put away. You wanted to know why I wanted you out of my life there you go.
i have not the slightist clue to why i wrot this one but i think it might have to do with how my dad used to beat my mom but i'm really not sure
Going through life with all this hurt,
All this pain that’s tearing me apart.
Not sure what it’s for?
Or why my body’s lying on the floor.
Looking down at what seems surreal,
Only to find that I’m no longer real.
To find that this was dream,
Would be supreme.
But I look down below,
And wonder why was I thrown.
Thrown across the room by my one true love,
Knowing that he sent me above.
Not sure what’s going to happen next,
Everything is so perplexed.
So now I float in what seems to be a limbo,
As I see me pushed out the window.
He sent me to my certain death,
Then made it look like I wanted death.
I don't understand
What every one says is this simple plan.
This plan everyone speaks of
This plane of true love.
How they say they will catch the one
With a glance
From under the sun.
In fact I don't understand stand any of this.
Them talking about pure bliss.
Where do they find it?
And where can I get some.
Will I ever find this thing called love?
I'm not sure I will but if I do
It will be a thrill.
I scream out in pain,
As I wake from the dream.
Wanting to returnm,
For love is what I yearn.
Knowing now that I’m,
Running out of time.
Walking with you and holding your hand,
Here I know you are my man.
The morning comes near,
All to soon I fear.
To wake from my peaceful slumber,
Would be more than just a bummer.
Because then I’d be back in reality,
Cold and lonely.
Cold and lonely till the sun drowns beyond the horizon,
Till I fall asleep again.
How many times must I try to get you to realize,
You the one,
The one I see,
The one and only,
I'm trapped with your eyes staring down on me,
Even though I need you company ,
You can't seem to realize I love thee.
How many times must I try to get you to realize,
You're the one,
The one I see,
The one and only.
I look around to find
I’m where I wanna be
Not just where I have to be
But truly happy.
I find nothing’s wrong,
Nothing at all,
Life has become great,
After all the mistakes I’ve made.
I find it didn’t tack a man,
Or his financial plan,
To make thing right again.
I find a deeper understanding of my self,
And I feel free to tack my self off the lonesome shelf.
I find peace all around me,
And I know that I have found me.
I find I’m not her or him,
I’m not any of them.
I find it took me years to find,
That every thing could be fine.
Now that I have found what I wanted,
Time to give what some one else what needed.
A peace of understanding,
A place to be free,
A companion,
A friend,
A life.
Memories come,
Memories go,
No matter what I do,
I can’t seem to let go.
Your face I see,
Your face in me,
No matter how hard I try,
You just won’t let me be.
I turn to walk away,
Then you scream stay,
Even though you can’t stand things this way.
We try to work things out,
But all we do is scream and shout.
Then we look back to find,
That time doesn’t make things fine.
Memories come,
Memories go,
Now it’s time we both let go.
This pain I feel inside
I can no longer hid.
I can’t hide from it or any thing.
I just hate these damn feelings.
They bind me to you
Make me stick worse than glue.
If only they would evaporate
Then I could open the gate.
But as long as their there
You abuse me and that’s not fair.
You use me to get what you want
You don’t even care about what I want.
How many times have I tried to walk away?
And then you turn around and make me stay.
I can’t go on living this way.
You brought this on yours self
You left me on the shelf.
You think I will always stick around just to please you
Well this is what I give to you.
I give you my heart
In a heart shaped box
Just to show you that this was your fault.
Now I put it through the mail
And know that it shall not fail
This will make you see
How I did truly love thee
But you used and confused me.
So now I’m out of your way
Just as you wished
I went away.
You’ll think of looking for me
But you will not find me
For I have gone to my own death
In to the next life
Where I will recognize you and your pretty wife.
But I won’t care because you weren’t really there.
Not in my new life.
my heart is aching
for you wont stop shaking
you seem to love me
but you won't efen hug me.
i don't undrestand
is this all part of our plan
your plane to take my heart
and tear it apart.
how could you put me through this hell
don't you know my love will never fail.
i can't seem to get a grasp
whiole you lay her down in the grass.
don't yousee
that should be me.
i have been their for you
i would kill for you
all you have to do is ask
no more than that and i would kick their ass.
my darling
my love
come back to me
mack me happy for etrnety.
I can't stand this pain
It drives me insane.
Nothing is fine
Not even when I’m drunk off wine
My heart has been torn out
Torn up and ran over by a semi-truck
This pain I feel just won’t subside
I can't let it out or I’ll die
No one cares
And no ones there
Where’s my angel that’s supposed to care.
I cry alone
And I cry at home
But I’ll never understand why you left me over the phone
I never did understand
That you weren't a real man
You were macho and tough
And sex you could never have enough.
You said you loved me
You said you cared
But in reality
You never were there.
But I loved you any ways
And I thought one day you would change.
But instead you stayed the same.
But I’m ok
My heart has healed
And I know that one-day
You’ll be standing out in that lonesome field.
I know one day you will get yours
And as it's happening I’ll be with him on Florida's seashore.
I find it funny that you say you are hurt
When you were the jerk
You played my hart
Now I’ve played you
Now I’m done
And I have a new one
Who is ten times better than you ? You regret
All this pain and torment
For it will come back and bite you in the ass
And I shall have my revenge at last.
Blown
Your corpse cold and still
Empty eyes
Broken heart to fill
Snow pale skin
Ice cold hands
An empty shell
Left in God's hands
What will he do with you?
What can he do with you?
Shall you be an angel?
Left to watch over me?
A demon to fill me full
Of misery.
Your body stiff
Full of deceit
They gave you a home
And it's six feet deep
No place to run
No place to hide
But you don't care
You've already died
You shall leave
As you came
An empty soul
With no one to blame
Your hands been dealt
And the game is done
You're full of joy
You think you've won
What will we do with you?
What can wee do with you?
There's nothing left to be done.
The game is over
You've had your fun you've ruined our lives
Including your own
I'm sorry friend your covers been blown.
This was written by a friend of mine
Now seeing my body broken,
all disappears,
And my sprit is broken,
after all these years.
For I wake up in a cold sweat,
Know that I can’t risk to bet.
Lying next to whom I thought loved me,
I realize that this can’t be.
I must flee my misery,
Knowing that this was more than just a dream,
Knowing I must leave.
Find my reprieve.
So I pack my things in the dead of night,
And run down the stares to start my new life.