Here's a recent one.....a very tormented one about what was done to me in my childhood.... A look inside me for those that don't know me that well....


"The Worst Lie"

Ripping, tearing at flesh
wounds that burn and fester so deep
yet never so raw
as the cold disillusions
and egotistical greed
you used to shred my morality.
You distorted all that
was born to be good, strong
and pure within me...
I was who I was
and who I have become was never
NEVER good enough...
I tried, fought, failed
and fell enslaved
as a part of me broke
and died beneath cruelty's whip.
Was it not injustice enough
that I suffered for your crimes committed?
That what was supposed to be
LOVE was lies....
Spouting rightousness
you still tried with vindication
to mold and crush under your will
the spark of a wailing soul
crying out in immortal agony...
I trusted you,
counted on you to be stable:
needed you to teach me how
to find wisdom in this life...
Yet, all your love had to share
were lessons in domination, plunder, blind rage
and the violent, selfish ways
in which to slaughter individuality
and murder a precious mind....
You fed me a bitter brew:
a mutilated, merciless reality
of choking pain as sustinence.
Brainwashed and manipulated
by a innate desire to please,
I learned to despise that which
I should've loved and cherished most:
MYSELF....
Within bloody torment and despair,
I came to believe that the worst lie
I could live was truth:
who and what I was; my very essence,
my miraculous soul....
Was NEVER and would NEVER be
GOOD ENOUGH to be
LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY.........

Very nice Sin, I must say I think I know how you feel.

Hmm....that is sad that u can relate FLF....**hugs FLF**

Here's another:




“ WHO IS THIS ME?”

“Who am I?” I ask myself repeatedly…
This pale, cool skinned
Green eyed, sweet voiced
Female I see…
With an ancients’ soul
And a warriors heart
Beating in her breast:
Born to lead , yet alone
And lost from the rest….
I fit in no-where,
No place is called home:
I am restless within
Discontent and yearning
Ever for more….
Seeking truth, knowledge
And answers to the past;
Finding only illusions
That a harsh reality has cast….
I cry tears of blood ----
My wounded heart weeps:
Betrayed, denied, confused
As it struggles not to turn cold….
Fearing the loss of love
And the eternal void
Of loneliness wrought…
Courting death
Since before birth…
But still singing, bringing life:
Clinging to a thread of hope
Against all odds
With an unfaltering will
And a faith in fate’s destiny….
Who is this me?
This seemingly enlightened one
Who suffers mortality so..
Generous to a fault
Yet cautious to an extreme
And mercilessly cruel
To those proven careless and mean…
Who is this
Wild and proud;
Sensually naughty woman
Within me?
With her fierce loyalty
And justice-minded ways…
Loving all creatures,
Worshipping the night ---
Desiring wings and flight….
Trapped by time
And needing so desperately
Something just out of reach:
That which was lost
To dark shadows
In rivers of blood….
This unforgettable image
Of immortal love….

And another:



"Awestruck"



" Have you ever found yourself gazing in awe; rendered speechless by an 'everyday' beauty of nature? Were you aware of only the incredible perfection of that moment and that you possessed a deep desire for it to somehow last forever: even if only in your minds' eye? Could you feel how it touched the remotest places inside your soul; stimulating all of your senses and enveloping you in an intoxicatingly sweet pleasure so tangible that it became overwhelming?
Do you recall how immense the gratitude you felt was? That you were lucky enough to be able to witness such a miracle and how it filled your entire being with euphoria? Weren't you somehow inclined to believe that perhaps you'd lived your entire life up until this very moment just to experience the awesome power of such a single event? When love and joy no longer lived inside or within you as simply words or emotions; but became manifested externally in an ethereal beauty so simply pure and profoundly rare that it took your very breathe away to witness it?"

yet another:



Inperpetum Inamora



Memories…..that are so vivid and crystal clear
Of an emotion so raw in it’s intensity
That it will forever bring tears…
Reality…..one so twisted in it’s Irony
That even a love unconditional
Cannot heal its wounds…
Embraced by dreams…..so hauntingly passionate
That they burn away a naked innocence
Which was once so vital to what would be….
Realizations…of a truth so startling in it’s simplicity;
Yet so absolute of a faith illusive in its tenacity…
Powerful in silences…but still:
So temptingly beautiful in a pleasure
That overwhelmes all senses…
A Hope….One carved in Flesh
So deep it bleeds the life of thee…….

This is to my immortal love.....



LOST LOVE




It is like a sword driven
deep into my heart;
every moment without you
is an eternity of agony within me….
For with each heartbeat;
With each labored breath…
Each hot tear I shed:
All bleed my pain
And cry your name…



I do not know who you are yet,
my soul mate….
Yet I know we have met….
I hear you speak to me
And my heart cries for you…
Why do you not come?
Yet I feel your presence in me?
How can it be that I know
I lost you somehow, somewhere…
So great the wrenching pain
As if my heart and soul
Were ripped from my breast…
My fate cradled
in the loving arms of death…
How long has it been?
Where are you?
I can make no sense of it all:
I know only
That it seems like an eternity
And all I am yearns for you…..

I think you would be suprised with what I can relate to :P

I haven't read the other yet, but I will!

More:


"BE WARNED: LOVE CAN KILL... It is most like a Vampire's Kiss....
For some it may offer Immortal Life:
but for most unfortunate others....
It brings only Death
disguised in a Passionate Swoon.......



"The Essence Of Me"



I am the one called Sin, daughter to the moon, lover of the night and child of the earth. Although I can and do walk in the suns' light, I prefer to prowl the shadows of the night. I watch all with luminous eyes and a yearning, lonely heart...... hoping to one day find the others whose immortal souls set them apart. Brethren to I as children of the earth, they are...these lost spirits are the last of my kin... Wanderers of shadows who seek desperately to find the light that lives within...... Tell me, my brothers and sisters.....do you have the courage to look deep? Deep into the burning depths of my eyes? Or will you shy away in fear of that which you find? If I dared appear to you, my lost relatives...... What would you see? Could you find the light you so desperately seek Within the essence of Me?


"Daughter of the Darkness....."
Part One



"The night calls to me, summoning the sleeping hunger within... to awake, arise, come forth and taste the pleasures of fleshly sin... It echoes in my heartbeat, a burning hunger like the singing flames in my veins.... a primordeal ache in my very bones; a desire to prowl the shadows that I cannot contain..... I go forth into the mist, a hunter in search of its' prey.... In the cycle of life and death, there is no other way. I am neither devil or angel; saint or sinner, friend or foe...
of heaven or hell there's nothing I know. I can tell you of beauty, wisdom, power, magic, mystery and truth; I can warn you gently against the dangerous follies of youth...... I am an old soul, yes... with a very ancient heart beating in my chest;
title me not damned or foresaken for these descriptions I detest.
In lies, misinformation and deceit I cannot abide....
for it is only in beauty and truth that an immortal soul can eternally reside..... So, come explore the night with me: my child, my beloved victim... and leave behind those mortal fears; allow me to release your imprisioned spirit and drink in the essence of your tears.....

Yet another:


"The Forgotten Promise"

I'll never forget that fateful day; my brothers cries of agony led me to his side...
to find him laying on the frozen ground, mortally wounded:
his blood staining the pure white snow an evil red....
As I knelt by his side, I ran my fingers into his thick coat;
tears choking my throat and stinging my eyes....
Beneath my hands, I could feel the evidence of his hunger as well as his wounds....
His soft whimpering cut a valley into my soul and gazing into his amber eyes one last time;
I whispered a farewell of love as his spirit departed..... Pressing my face against his velvety cheek,
I sobbed deeply;
thinking how his eyes would forever haunt me... Haunt me with the chilling truth in their steadfast,
piercingly human-like gaze:
that our futures are forever bound together
within humanities forgotten promises.... That as goes my brother and his kin, so one day shall I.... Will your children grow up to kill me? A sister? Out of fear or for fun? As you and your kin did to my brother, the Wolf? The forgotten promises of humanity:
kinship and respect for all;
they have died with my brother there in uncharted, bittercold lands....
The unspoken truths that
Walk in the Shadow of the Wolf.......

Another for my immortal love, a draconian:



Sacrificial Rebirth


My eyes were closed
but yet somehow
I still saw....
dreamvision perhaps
thru an enveloping darkness
across thousands of miles...
A crystalline like glitter
resembling tiny flames
trapped within ice...
Pale armor
softly luminant
within a desolate cavern
seemingly like delicate
slivers of irredescent steel
reflecting the pure beauty
of a vanishing breed....
Did I sense
rather than see
the faintest movement...
perhaps a breath
taken in that inky
darkness before me?
No,
how could it be?
Yet, there was
something else....
Crimson droplets;
a trail of fresh blood
spattered the earthy ground....
tiny, shiney wet pools
tears of life shed...
the essence of a pain wept
and of a mortality bled.
I think I gasped;
audibly in the silence
as my heart lept out...
for an eye opened
in response...
erasing any doubt...
There was a wounded one
here...yes,
but still alive
for there filled the air
a suffering so palitable
one could not help but care....
What did it see?
This ancient one so young
when it's glowing
luminous eyes
focused in on me?
I fell to my knees
in disbelief...
heart racing irradically:
soul crying out
empathy..
both echoing
into stillness
of that cavern's deep.....
I should've known...
I should've seen it
immediately...
but my human eyes
were closed in dream....
So, instead,
I let my weeping heart
reach out
hoping to heal
this agony and suffering
lying before me....
Uncertainty and insecurity
trembled violently beneath...
I wondered:
could the power of love's sacrifice
overcome those fears
raging just outta reach?
Silence stretched
out like agony..
testing trust,
faith and destiny...
Swallowing
shared torture
courting the death
in hopes of rebirth...
so consumed I was
mesmerized
I bared my naked
wounded breast....
My thoughts raced
projected
whispered
heartfelt words of sacrifice
to thee...
"I know you
must feed...
Take that from me
which you need...
I offer it free......"
Seconds hung
disproportionately
before those
haunted orbs
came to rest
full force on me.....
What l beheld
within their soulful depths
proceeded to awaken
all that had once
died in me.....
The glittering scales
shimmered magically
like jewels in the darkness
back at me
as a hope
so long denied
unfolded wings
my eyes had failed to see.....
This immortal illusion
taking shape
becoming living
reality....
And so accepted
I was held
breathless
spellbound
by gentle talons
as fangs and tongue
fed oh so reverently
on the white flesh
and crimson river of life
I had offered thee...
My eyes
once closed in dream
and now loving
euphoric ecstacy
opened to behold:
the eyes of the last
dragon
gazing in enraptured bliss
back at me......

yet another:


Vampyre's Kiss

Sweet darkness
Embraced
A sacrifice Offered unconditionally
"Drink from me;
Feast on that within…."
The singing blood
A radiant energy
Becoming enraptured
Empowered
A passionate swoon
Euphoric, orgasmic Ecstasy
My life….becoming your life;
Our shared pleasure
Is your rebirth
And my absolution..
An ethereal dance
Of winged souls
A vampyre's kiss
Of immortal love……

hmm..maybe last one?




Spiritual Embrace



We come to each other,
In dreams late at night;
Our spirits free and strong;
Swift in their predestined flight.
In this misty dark realm
Our spirits often meet;
To touch, intermingle and become complete.
Yet as much strength
As these spiritual encounters provide;
Somehow, the moment your soul departs
Mine begins to feel as if it has died.
So I send it back out after yours:
To be by your side in a world where few care…
I want you to know
My spirit will always be there.
When others cannot see
All those things you keep hidden underneath;
My spirit’s with you
To share in your suffering
And offer some relief….
You can turn to me,
I will embrace you back…
My love is something
You shall never lack….
I will always be by your side:
In a world where loyalty and trust are rare:
I need you to believe
My spirit love will always be there…..

so long ago
that I forget
the passion you stirred
when we met
without a touch
but a word
not even your voice
of angels I'd heard
I knew you
inside of me
holding my pain
that others don't see
keeping me here
away from hell
safe inside your heart
protected so well
and yet
I left you
never knowing
all that you'd do
and now I am
waiting to hold you
to give you the peace
I felt so true.... :(

Beautiful Jobe... Hmm....we can definately relate to one another...

Very beautiful... you are very good with words Divine Sin and Jobe. Too bad I'm not capable of poetry myself. *has a lot of thoughts on his mind that he fails to turn into words*

Hmm..***hugs Morph ty** I appreciate ur compliments Morph...some ppl have a way with words...some ppl have other talents....*winks**

Discriptive they pull you in . Alot of poetry reads wonderfully on the page but yours i can actually immagine being scream'd or wisperd to another the first one most definitly scream'd :D :ph34r:
.......................Ashrael

Thanks Ash...it means alot that u say that..... **blushes**

wow .. intriguing, very sensitive and with every emotion infused in each word. I definately love it.

..*hugs Sin*..

A recent poem I "free wrote" for Ooze.......


Look into the darkness
that is ur soul....
and u shall find,
light within the shadows.....
hidden truths, cloaked beauty
and a reality that is not blind.....
Wipe away the torment,
the fears and insecurities:
free urself from lonely sorrows
and learn the pleasures
carnal absolution can bring...
Do not steel ur heart against love
or imprison ur spirit against hope...
do not allow others control of ur fate...
Walk into that darkness
and conquer ur destiny...
knowing that all u'll ever need:
the strength, courage and passion.....
u already possess within...........

For you sweet Devine I wrote this after reading your poems I thought this the best way between poets to say how they made me feel.........

For You............

Devine Sin
>~<>~<>~<
I fall for sin ,
To let me in .

To beheld ,
By eyes devine .

Teach me ,
Complete me .

Take me ,
by your side .

Please me ,
deceve me .

My daughter ,
of darkness writhes .

Sweet succubis ,
For just one kiss .

Your Blood lust ,
Sactified................





Hope you like it

WOW.....**is speechless** Thanks very much for that wonderful poem u wrote for me Translucent Desire....I hope it's ok that I wanted/did use it in my sig.....U have amazing talent...**hugs and places a kiss on desire's cheek**

*feels like he needs to reply..*

*can't*

Then...say nothing Ooze...u know how our relationship is... **smiles and hugs him** and whispers "unconditional" .................

LOVE EM ALL!! :P heehee! my childhood was like, perfect... i wonder why im so fucked up? :huh: *lol* <_< oh welllls, i still think they'r all beautiful!! *huggles yoo* your so good, lol. i wish i could write like that *shakes head* well i better be off to skool now, ill come bak and write more l8a

PS: **we gotta start an Ooze fanclub heehee ^_^ :D **

Hm.....ty for ur compliments...and concerning the Ooze fan club...well, LOL, I started one last year :P ...he's one of my best friends.....

..*wonders if there's any new material on the works*..

..*sits and waits*..

WAUW
Divine... have you been bitten or something?
These are very nice textes!

sorry for the so late respond to it but I wasnt here yet when you wrote that stuff, and I just read them.. so, here's a reply needed of me.

And yeah Zephirus, I can't wait to see more to :D

*sits next to Z and calling Divine Sin to make sum more BeAUtifULL texts*

well, if she doesn't write .. I will.

..*chuckles*..

hmm, let's see.

lustful scents
mystical fire
rounded up in Sin
body of Gods
mind of immortals
burning desire
luminous traces

..a succubus with a fiery gaze..

it's simple .. but something I guess.

TY CHupa...I appreciate it...such nice words..
**hugs**

I've read only your first 'the worst lie' and its very good. And i'll sure read all of them. Keep writting.

~Simon~

Your poes are so......so.....beautiful.......actually they arnt beautiful...their beyond words can that cant xpressed....keep it up...I'd like to see more...
<3 chupa

I haven't any new ones...yet....hopefully soon though. Ty all....

New one:

Midnight Muse of a Lover


I lay here, drifting
in soft light and thick shadows
My body relaxed,
my mind restless…
my heart yearning,
my soul aching for completion.
I wish, at least, that I could sleep
yet I watch the clock:
I toss, I turn…
I am here, yet not.
Is this a semblance of despair ?
My need is so great
I can practically taste it:
My desire, my longing so overwhelming
it threatens to engulf me….
Penetrating every fiber of my being;
possessing all of me.
This foul tasting, bitter irony
that is reality eats away at me;
the distance, this forced separation
is an unbearable agony.
Yet I cling desperately,
faithfully, to all I have
and have finally found
IN YOU.
Against odds I battle wearily:
for you, our union, true love,
for us, our chance at happiness, a future,
for sweet completion…
In this bed,
in these enveloping shadows;
when I can do nothing else
but be consumed with missing you….
I lay here, helpless
in the night; alone, yet not…
haunted, distracted
by this love I have for you.
My best friend, my lover, my soul mate;
we are bound by blood…
tied by fate’s hands and destiny…
Oh how I wish
we were together now;
how I wish you knew
how very much you mean to me:
How I would be
here in this blackness,
overtaken by this isolating madness
Without You;
Without your Light…
All I was, am and will be
cries out for you:
longing to feel your presence next to me;
to have your touch, your warm arms to comfort me,
your husky voice whispering to me.
These things infuse me with such peace,
hope, faith, strength and love….
I need, I want,
I LOVE…Only You.
Until we can be united again,
I cling stubbornly with all I have left
to this gift of love we’ve been given:
our memories, hopes, dreams….
And to my pillow
silently praying
through bittersweet tears
for slumbers’ unconsciousness
to release me……

Let My Love Take Me


I lay here, adrift in shadows,
crashing waves of memory;
in a time, a place where togetherness
is wedded with euphoric bliss.
If only
this loneliness didn’t sting so
of a cruel reality and a bitter irony:
If only
the ocean between us
was an obstacle that could be contended with…
Ensnared by this web of seduction;
consumed by this burning thirst and hunger:
aching, starving, living, dying
for the salvation only
we can give each other.
Yet I find…all I have to do is
Close my eyes and follow;
a trickle of crystalline tears shed for love,
a rivulet of crimson blood that binds
and the summons of an aching soul will call me home…
I close my eyes;
let my love take me…
for it gives me the wings
to conquer an ocean;
the power to defy space and time;
the ability to see you, feel you, touch you, hold you…
I close my eyes and
let my love take me;
into a passion that enflames me,
into arms that are my destiny,
into a union that completes me…
into a miracle that gives me
sweet immortality.

*fades in quietly from the cold shadows, and in his usual deep voice, decadent and mellow, he speaks softly to Sin*

It is rare that two people find such powerful love in each others arms, from the poetry I read, Ooze and you have just that. I am delighted to read its effects upon the author, wonderful work. ^_^

*slips back into the chill embrace of shadows, and dissipates into oblivion once more*

Why ty Meph for ur eloquent observation.

My Devine Sin....... I am truely speechless at your writings.

I must admit that "The Essence of me" has absolutely unlocked a long locked passage in my mind.

I hadn't read any of these words prior to replying in your pics and now, thanx to your direction, I find that your existance is overwhelming!

You are truely my kin and I now find that I will never roam those woods alone again.

Embrace the love you have for it is a gift from our maker but know that it is but another lesson of our form of existance. ;)

I'm stunned by your amazing work Sin... Really! Without any doubt i truly admire you! Much love...
Sincerely,

(Wipes a tear.) This is so sad, yet I think know where you’re coming from. :(

The saddest part about that Hmm, is that u can relate. That's a damn tragedy. :(
*hugs*

*hugs back* Agreed.

"Who is this me?"


You are I..... -_-

Or u are me and that makes us we? :P LOL!

LOL :lol:

I like WE....when it includes U ;)

Hm....with kin, is it not always that way?

Latest....another for Ooze.



"What do u do?"

What do u do
when time is ur greatest enemy?
When the silence that surrounds
torments u?
What do u do
when the emptiness that is ur everyday life
has begun to envelope u in glacial ice?
When ur loneliness and longing
make u into a slave
yet at the same time eat u alive from within?
What do u do
when the tears u cry have become
like blood from wounds
that burn paths down ur cheeks?
When ur aching soul
is the only company u keep?
What do u do
when u love so much
that the absence of one
crushes ur ability to breathe?
When u must find a way to exist
abeit imcomplete?
What do u do
when ur so helpless to change anything
that all u can do is watch?
When time passes u by
mercilessly unaware of ur suffering?
What do u do
when every day is an extreme effort?
When what once brought pleasure
now holds little meaning?
What do u do
when every second without is agony?
When sleep no longer comes much....
when food loses its taste and appeal?
What do u do
when u know where home is
but u cannot get there?
What do u do
when smiles become forced;
when most joys are lost on u?
What do u do
when u need someone so much
that u can't image living without them?
When every day endured apart
costs more than u could ever say?
What do u do
when all u can do
is wait
and try desperately to hold together
the pieces of ur heart, soul and essence
in seperation agony.....

A couple older ones I didn't post..i don't know why.


Until You


I thought I knew what love was;
I thought I’d known love that was true…
Until I met you.
Until you looked at me
The way you do…
And touched me so gently
In places I never knew…
Until your silent patience
Spoke to me of complete trust;
Reminding me of the fact
That faith is a must…
Until your voice
Soothed away my deepest fears
And your warm smile
Chased away years of tears…
Until your generosities
Put all others before you to shame
And your unfaltering kindness
Taught me to let go of the blame.
Until your heart-felt compassions
Pulled me thru…
And your flawless loyalties
Illuminated hidden truths…
Until you woke me
With the power of your passionate kiss;
Teaching me to touch, to taste…
That to feel love is utter bliss….
Until you showed me
What unconditional really means:
With your eyes, your voice, your touch,
You actions, your trust, your everything….
It’s undeniable it seems…
That I never knew what true love actually was….
Until you set me free to see….
It is you and me…..

One of the most Precious Things


It isn’t easy to sum up in words
How I feel about you.
I know honest smiles are precious to me.
But you couldn’t have known
How much yours meant to me;
The first time and every one after…
Your smile reminds me of the sun
In the light, hope and joy it brings…
To warm the heart as it does
Is one of the most precious things…