*soflt laughs* well maybe I will...if I can remember to...

well if there be a need..I will be here to remind you

you don't give up that easily do you?

give up what?...lol...I am just being me

I know, I know...you are you, should have figured out that by now.

maybe or maybe not...

are you trying to confuse me on perpose?

are you confused? no I am not trying to confuse you at all..*touches your cheek*

well you do always confuse me with your or thingy...

never meant it...I will explain deeply if need be..and I will not use the "or" thingy anymore in that way..communication with you is important

thank you...so what do you mean with maybe/maybe not.

I was referring to you saying that you should have learned that about me by now...I was just saying that maybe you should have..but then maybe not..it takes different things for different people

mm...don't I feel stupid now

Feels you* hmm..no not really you feel pretty good to me...

oh...okay

hey love,
beautifull as ever. Your words are very mystierious filled with a sence of calmness. I injoy my vist often. Sorry I can't visit as often as I want. My GF works me out so I hardly have the strength or time to do much anymore...anyway
YOU LIVE IN SWEISHULAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *can't spell I"M A RETARD* REALLY!!!! damn I thought this girl I been talking to on msn was you.. She lives in nottingham or something. She's kool.. anyways... you should get on msn often baby.. so we can have words.. and stuff.. I CAN SHOW YOU my web cam and stuff.. anyways
this was a nice chat.. have to do it again sometimes... *plants her a kiss on the cheek and leaves*

hey my friend

thank you for such kindness, it means a lot. but you know that you are here at all means so much, so don't be sorry...
yea, I live in Sweden....that's why my spellings and compositions are off at times. well my computer is very slow, so when I am on the net I have to choose between msn or just surfing around...so that's way...and yes we should do this another time. your friend Yûi.

hehe your cute.. I have time now.. if your still on.. but anyways.. where in sweden.... is it kool their.. where is sweden anyways.. heard of it..but never seen it... what do you like like anyway hun.. always wondered..
take your time.. I have queastions after queastions.. if you don't feel compfortable... tell me to stop and I will.. heheh
I don't see anything wrong with your composure??

yea I'm here...
hem...am I cute?
I don't know if it is kool...it is just sweden.
for the moment I live in Stockholm...but for the last 4 years I been moving around alot.
what I am like or what I like?

I mean my sentencing....

Okay we'll go with the basics
age
gender
favorit color
favorit movie
favorit item
favorit sex toy HAHAHA j/k j/k

anyways.. me
I'm 18 female... fovorit color silver.. Love whinny the pooh... favorit item has to be.. my stuff teddy bear.. it's taller then me.. I can lay in it's paws.. and sex toy... hehehe.. I like strab ons.. but I'm lisbian.. so yea.. course I like em.. *giggles madly* what else
I'm in high school senoir.. full name adora sondi anne ramirez
I live with my parents... in post texas..
I'm anti social... religous but don't believe in god... and my choicen perffesion would be directing..
okay your turn

okay well my age really don't matter
all girl...hem into guys, but aren't looking for anyone
if black would be a colour I guess that would be it
well moves; hum would have to say MoonChild
item; hum my photo-album
hem the last one, I guess non...I am hem not into that.

I said I was joking hun.. *laughs* just wanted a reaction from you that was all. sorry me in a bit of chiper mood.. *shrugs*
photo albem kools.. do you have a pic I could see.
age dosen't matter.. guess your right.. I just feel so old.. *sad frown * most ppl who I met who come here are like 13 or 14 up to their 16 sept for bd but bd is kool.. hehehe
anyways.. yea...I think it's all nifty you live in sweden... I bet it rocks.. I would like to vist sweden.. but it's feel nice this time of year.

I know...but you told me about you, ne? so I thought it was only right to give up something about me...
nah, I have no pic...no cam or anything like that
not that it matters, cause there is really nothing to see.
well I am older then 14 *smiles* some years older...so anyways
I like this time of year to, alot of rain and soon it will come snow, I hope

AAAAAAaaaaa...my ears are burning!
someone talking about me.
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hey yuui...
buddha just likes to play games,
isent he cute!

cute? *smiles some* maybe he is...

Kools hehe.. sorry bout not replying asap.. bell rang and this guy picked me up now I'm drunk in his room.. using his internet.. HAHAHAHAHAHA.. and theirs a bird loose in the house.. I don't know what this guy sliped me.. DAMN>>>> it's so fucken hot... anyways.. kool.. I love the rain to.. hehe.. snow is better.. HEHEHE..*kiss*

it's okay... drunk, hu?
well I can't say if I like the rain better then the snow
or the snow better then the rain, I just need them both
well need is maybe not the right word for it, but it is the best I have

Telling him to get a gripe of himself
I’m ain’t falling
Just taking a trip from the wall
With broken wings
Smiling as the ground comes near
It’s just my mind tripping
My visions fusing
Illusions flying through my room
And it becomes a happy moment of not feeling anything at all
As I sing of the blue deep sins
Soaring through my skin
It is the past knocking inside my brain
The heart screaming for your caressing tongue
Lies filling my spine
And I keep on dancing before his eyes
Maybe he will take me soon
On the floor…holding the steel
I moan for a last realise
But I’m ain’t falling
Just taking a trip from the wall
With broken wings
As the move takes me down the road
Alone I stand dreaming
Of earth’s warming cloths
Of white crawling worms
When my hands find the red rose
Under the falling snow
My skin becomes paler
And my lips kiss the air we’re breathing
As the night press close inside my corner
My feet begins to become cold
When you come near my truth
I hide behind the well known smile
But I’m ain’t falling
That is what I am telling him
I am just taking a trip from the wall
With broken wings
Down under the black-old-mother-soil

Who would have thought that such spam would be here LOL. Spam is great guys lol.

And btw: nice poem *smiles*

(sorry for the lack of umm....enthusiam...3 hours in 30 degree weather does that to ya)

mm…yea, it is kind of hard to believe
wasn’t expecting it myself, Ummei…

thank you, my friend…I guess it is nice
although there is some change that should be done on the end of the poem
although I don’t seam to be able to edit, it
which is a little hum…irritating…but I guess that is life.

don’t be sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for
you came by…and that’s more then I really can ask for

Leaves are falling
Red colours floating…shaping autumn-fall
While cold winds with organic touches
Scream to the sky…time to unveil your tears
Time to unfold your despair
Time to say goodbye sunshine…

Tear drops onto my fire
Onto enfolding blackened wings
Hidden in-under the cover of oaks
My spell reaches his mind…as I walk into the light
Into the fire
Into the end of summer…

That's so bittersweet. The thought of autumn, such beautiful death takes place.

And if you can't edit, ask a mod or something.

great poem..wiith broken wings..no peace will ever
bring the heart back to the camling skies.

I love the poem, reminds me of why I like autumn so much

Ummei: thank you…it means so much, to find your words inhere
especially, when they give me such grace…thank you my friend

well I think I just have to learn to live with my mistakes…

BD: thank you my friend. It is very kind of you to say so

CSAsniper00: *smiles a little* thank you, my friend


I had to fall…To know that I was always flying

I had to feel pain
To be able to understand happiness
And in pain
I lost my way back home

For long I just wondered
With out understanding…just crying
Without spilling any tears
Thinking I was strong…not complaining with my thought
Without trying to change that which wasn’t I
Into that which I always were
…always been

it was so easy to bleed
but so hard to live with…the past
of what I had done…

“Love the’ neighbour like you love the’ self”

I just couldn’t love anybody
Cause I couldn’t love myself
And the more I dwelled in the pain…the more I lost myself
Eventually…I couldn’t find anything, that was me, anymore
I had to understand that which wasn’t I
To become me…

I had to live in someone else’s world
Before I could create my own
In the moment of understanding I will be borne
I will finally become me

I had to fall…to know that I was always flying
That all I am
Always been inside of me…

I really don't have time to read poem *sigh* Going on a trip tomorrow and I'm gettin ready. So I thought it'd be nice to stop by and say hello and goodbye. *gives hugs*

hey i like that one..its diffrent from your new
stuff..i like it.i just seems like it needs a
few more lines..but tis good.
glad u are into my story thingy..the end is
almost there..just need to do it right..or
itll become crudd.

it has a good feel to it..the feeling of change

Ummei: it’s okay you know…

BD: thank you, my friend…yea well I guess it is kind of different
not really thought about it…

well it is cause it isn’t finished…cause I am not finished
you see it is me, and my knowing of me…and some understandings I guess
until I choose to do…I will be stuck on the poem…but when I am that which I am
and understanding that I am…then I will finish the poem

Buddha: mm…I know. thank you for your words…

G.C.

evening stars fall
my mind screams my wish
as I murmer the words between my lips
I wish for his wishes
and hug the cold wind tight
feeling the rain through my clothes
while I start to travel to his arms...through my dreams
to whisper in his ear...that I love
love him dearly...above anyone else

So how has life treated you so far dear? Anything new to tell?

Hey yuui!
just wondered when i saw youre picture if you have seen chobits.
I have the whole chobits-thingy on dvd :D weee
and how are you doing?

*hugs from me*

Donovan: hem...life I guess is kind to me.
wouldn't want to blame life for anything really.
nothing new...just me and my problems
*smiles some* but I am getting better.

R.A.V: *smiles* I have the comic series actually...
I'm getting better....and how are you doing my friend?

closing my eyes…slowly…slowly feeling your burning touches
in my throbbing streams…while your lips softly…just teasingly
finds mine…slowly…slowly deepening with damp penetrations
while the moans fill my throat…gasping…soft desperate…hart
beats…slowly…slowly possessing my lips…forcing my fingers
to clutch…the silky sheets…in a dim need…of your addictive
kisses…pounding streams…becoming…my impatient pleads…
while you slowly…slowly find your way…in-under my scorching
skin…
my eyes open…the dream has ended, and I crumble…as the fever
still rages through my body…shaking, I try to stop the images…
from taking me back into the flaming need of my dreams…sinner
echoes through my mind…repentance become a need…leaving
the sheets behind…with hasty movements…turning on the water
cleansing my skin…with scrubbing motions...trying despreatly
to make the sleepiness...leave my mind...but I just can't let it go
...unwillingly my feet leads me...to the drawer with all I need...to
forget my wanting dreams...open sesame...the knife glimmers...
stares at me...my fingers shake...as they gripe the handle...yearning
the need to stop the games...take hold...the cutting begins...ends
with me on the floor...sobbing...no more

SO SAD

well i think u confused me a bit..yeah alot..so
umm thanks?pttt.
oh i liked the last one u have done,
very sad..but nice in a dramatic way..or sadness.
ok im going now.

*smiles a little* thank you both for your replays
but why do you think it is sad?

I think it's beautiful. The images that you write. The end result is heartbreaking.

[quote=Yuui,Nov 17 2004, 04:25 PM]
[size=1]Donovan: hem...life I guess is kind to me.
wouldn't want to blame life for anything really.
nothing new...just me and my problems
*smiles some* but I am getting better.


that is good....yeah same here...more or less anyway....

Donavan: *smiles some* yea I guess it is a good thing...
sorry to hear that, wish rather that people wouldn’t be able to fully understand
no one really deserves to know and understand...

Ummei: thank you ummei, it means a lot my friend
although I don’t know about it being heartbreak,
can’t really understand why you are thinking in this way...
any ways thank you ummei...