I haven't been in much of a writing mood,but here are some poems I wrote from the past couple days ^_^


.*~It may sound crazy
But it's nothing but true
When things get hazy
I'm thinking of you.
It may be what makes me suffer
But what more am I to do?
You love her,
But deep down I still love you..~*.


What to do..
I never thought if someone was older
They were capable of being more colder.
But I guess the fact wasn't true
Until the day I fell for you.

The tears I've cried
For only the reason why
The feelings you hide
When all I do is try.

I want to understand you
I truely do.
I just wish you only knew
How much I think of you.

Why can't things be different?
Why do you treat me this way?
This is so ignorant
And it's irritating more and more each day.

Why can't I just forget about you?
And forget about my past
And try to live my life as being true
To never suffer from living in the past
Especially with you. </3

wow. i really liked that poem krissi. that was a perfect peom. i liked the way it was formed. it had a nice body and the words were quite exquisite. please keep up more. you need to write more.

love nick

Broken Inside

For one second I thought we were meant to be.
We seemed so perfect,you and I.
Then, the true you was shown to me.
And that was when, you dared to make me cry.

All I wanted was a taste of happiness
When I looked in your blue eyes
I thought it was priceless
The way you made me feel so hypmotized.

Why couldn't you be truthful?
Why did you feel the need to lead me on?
Because you are nothing but cruel
Because, you knew you knew you'd be nothing..
until I was gone.

It hurts me in such a way
I wish I could make you see
How you torture makes me ache more and more each day
If only you could see, how broken you've made me. </3


..By the way. Thank you so very much Nick. Your thoughts mean so much to me. And as for your poetry, they've all left me speechless for words. I cannot believe once before, you wrote but never shared.. now you're open with the world with not even a care. I would be as well, if my words flew like your's. much love

Great poems!
I loved the first....It flowed perfectly..

Peace,
Angel In Mourning...

Rejection
I'm tired of waiting by the phone
Waiting for you to call.
I'm tired of being alone
And waiting for my time to fall.

I'm tired of being so cold
I just want someone to keep me warm
I'm tired of all these games,they are starting to get old
I just want someone to protect me from harm.

I'm tired of stating my expectations of a man
But when you promise me you're going to call
Don't call to give some kind of excuse to explain
Why you expect for me to fall.

I'm tired of fucking with these games
All I want is someone to have as my own
When I fall, it's my heart to always be at blame
All I want is to keep myself from dieing alone.

Those Lonely Nights
When the clouds roll in
And the darkness falls
When I begin sleeping
You are the one my heart calls
For from deep within.

I cry at night wishing for you
To come in my room and hold me tight
As I look out my window and wish for a dream come true
Through the darkness of night
I dream to have you, and only you.

When the night grows cold
And the warm grows so distant
It's starting to get old
How much I'd be there in an instant
For you to hold.

As my loneliness increases
My need to be with you grows stronger
As my need for anyone else decreases
As I can't wait any longer
For my loneliness to cease.

So I'm telling you in honesty
Of how only how I feel
I just hope you'll trust me
And realize this is real
That I want there to be an us;
Of you and me.

You have a gift. I can relate so much to you work. It brought tears to my eyes. Rose

heh i was able to see this poem before it was posted. i feel special. krissi, how i love your work. your pure soul only drains the emotion from you allowing others insight to your thoughts of pain, anguish and ecstatic pleasures alike. if only i were there to see you, so i could know the true krissi so well in person. though this may be a dream, some day i will be living proof that dreams do come true.
:20:

p.s. i love you more than cameron diaz lol

......beautifully written.....peace...

Aww. Thank you so much everyone. I haven't written a whole lot lately, for I haven't been able to let my words flow. Writer's block -_- is a pain at times. Although, I've had writer's block luckily my words began to flow I love reading your comments on my poetry, it makes me feel confident of writing more and more and release my emotions in them for you all to read.

P.S.Oh yes Nick, I love you more than Ashton Kutcher. Although, he's a doll. You win me over overall though.

.....written emotions should not be forced onto paper....let them come form your heart at their own time....peace...

Those Lonely Nights

that is what i call a good poem...you capture the feelings well

keep it up ...your really good

Thanks for the advice. I don't force them to come out, I just build my emotions up and I try to release them in that way. But it normally doesn't happen till they come out their own time.. which is what you said.

Sometimes I wish upon a midnight star
For it to steal all this pain I feel away
As I wonder where you are
And if you think of me day by day
Even if I was your reason for buying your car.

The reason I question I haven't a clue
But deep down I know I shouldn't care
I guess I'm only wondering if any of your words were true
I wonder if your words were only a dare
Of trying to break me in two.

Your words spoke like knives
Penetrating deep inside my chest at my heart
I tried my best not to ruin both our lives
But you chose to tear both our worlds apart
As I was ignorant enough to believe all your lies.

You once said how you burnt yourself
Because of the pain I put you through
But pain is nothing but it's self
And I'm sorry for ever saying I love you
But, I'd like for you to know I'll be stronger..
Once I'm by myself.

Jealousy as it may sound
I can't help but express how I feel
When you're no where around
It's the only way I feel real.

I know you found someone else
But my love for you is still as strong
I've never felt this way for anyone else
Especially for this long.

All I want to say is you're the best I ever had
It's not that I want you back
It's just I miss it all so bad
And perfection for you is where I lack.

I guess this only the story of a lost love
But a newly found close friend
In which all of the above
I never want to end.

Best I ever had
As hard as it may be
I feel as if he's forgotten all about me.
It may be for the best
As much as I think, it burns deep inside my chest.

He was the best I'd ever found
Although I never had him around.
I've loved him as much all along
I'm suprised these feelings have lasted so long.

Now I'm just a phoney
Remembering him leaves me down and lonely.
As much as it may seem so bad
It's just because he's the best I've ever had.

So he moved on for someone new
That's great, I knew it all wouldn't be a dream come true.
But as much as I deny I cant help but wish upon a star
For even just a moment to be where you are.

I never would've dared
For anyone else and him to be compared.
I know no one can make me feel the way he did
I just wish these emotions I would've hide.

These Emotions

These emotions have been coming one by one today
And once before I was trying to think of a way
For my feelings to come out
So I can allow everyone to know what I've been all about.

I'm suffering between a lost love
Sent from high up above..
To another love so hard to get over
For they seem to come to me to bother.

I wish for another chance with one
A chance in which his heart is won.
With another I want to cause so much pain
For all the time he made me suffer in living in vain.

How could these emotions
Become one conclusion?
Why can't my self-doubt leave me alone
And allow my confidence to be overgrown?

I guess this just proof of how dreams
Don't come true..
Especially if it is all it seems..
Wishes don't always qualify for you.

Blinded Love
As the painful touch of the sharpest blade
Slices across my wrists
I feel as if all these feelings for you will fade
And you will no longer exist.

All I wanted was a little comfort
A little loving here and there
It's not because time cut us so short
It's because I wanted a reason for believing you care.

You couldn't even comfort me
Or Protect me from the rain.
You couldn't even see
You were the reason for all my pain.

How ignorant was I
To believe you loved me
When it was all but nothing,but a lie
And I was once so blind to see.

This was written a view days ago..I just figured I'd post it on here too.


Although we were never together
Our past still lingers my mind
Those days we spent with no one to bother
Even if were wasting eachother's time.

The memories play in the back of my mind
Like a broken record locked in the past
I loved it when we were together,each and every time
I just wish I knew if we were meant to be atlast...

true love is built

written especially for you krissi


forever a thing of the past
love comes, love goes
how i wish that our relationship could have last
if it would have just held on, who knows

maybe your and my lives alike
could forever be changed by passion
like a bloody incision by a cold spike
through my heart, we still hold compassion

lost am i, in this worlds confusion
these choices so blind
our love ceased, proving not just a deceitful illusion
at least love was never hard to find

we had to let go
for distance made its cruel path into our lives
with so many decisions i just want you to know
each decision i contemplate look at my wrists like blood craved knives

so for now, i try to find happiness in love
until our time has come to finally meet
i will pray to the pastel skys above
only temporarily will we feel slightly incomplete

[COLOR=red]Aww. Nick. It's nice to know how you feel. I wanted to write a poem in reply to that. But, I've written so much today that now I feel so drained from it all. I totally agree, that we're temporarily slightly incomplete..which i feel as if you are the missing piece to the puzzle of a thing called my life. And I can't wait for that moment to come, when I'm able to look you so deep in the eyes. And get to know you for the person you are in person. And see if it is all but a dream, or a real dream come true. :winkiss:-krissi

You don't know me
You think you know me
Behind this so called pretty face
You think you can see
How much pain I've tried to erase

You think you know me
More than I know myself
I'm more than you'll think i can be
The reason why you ask, it explains it's self.

You make judgements upon
The different styles I wear
You do this for fun
When I don't care.

I'm tired of these silly judgements
Being made behind my back
If you had any comments
Then,social skills is where you lack.

Since you can't tell me yourself
You have to tell all my friends
As if I can't take it myself
When the truth will be known in the end.

Your words mean nothing to me
All they are is ignorant lies
It's too bad other's can't see
How much you yourself, you deny.

So here I am telling you
Exactly what I think
Whether or not you believe it is true
Or if you wash it away with just one blink.

I can't help my opinionated side bothers you
It's the way I express these feelings and thoughts
And this is all true whether it leaves you feeling so black and blue
This is the girl, that you thought i forgot.

( Okay If this poem doesn't make any sense to you. I basically wrote it because you know how once you're in highschool or anywhere basically they talk and make judgements upon you because they don't know you. And they think it's cool to make labels up on something that's unknown!? Yeah. People can be so ignorant at times. -_- )

So.. I have a quote I'm in like love with.

" Prep, Punk, Goth..
Whatever..
..Real People don't..
NEED labels <3 "

Confusing..
These emotions I feel off and on
Are so confusing running through my mind
I wish these thoughts would just leave and be gone
Because I feel as if you're so blind
Because you have idea of what's going on.

I try to tell you how I feel
Althought it feels to me to be nothing but
A mixed emotion, which is real
You act as if you don't care, which is why I've cut
Now I wish you could be here, so my scars will heal.

You made me feel as if you wanted to be with me
You made me fall into a lie and believe this is real
I just wish you could see
How much pain you make me feel
When all you do is smile with such glee.

I hate how when you kiss me
Everything seems so perfect
I hate how you can't see
How much of me you affect.

I hate how you feel this is nothing but a compliment
I hate how everything I say you seem to ignore
I'm sorry for not understanding why I was your entertainment
When you left me nothing but pain hardcore.

I never thought liking someone older
Would make you realize
How much colder
They can be with their ice cold lies.

I hate how much you lead me on
I never did anything to you
But once you come to your senses, I'll be long gone
Because you were never who I thought I knew.

I don't even feel like myself anymore
I feel like I'm nothing at all
When I've felt this way before
When all I wanted to was fall.

Now that I've thought about everything
I can see how all along you denied
I never meant anything
Because all this time you lied.

Not your perfect daughter..
I hate how you call and try to front
Like you've been the perfect father all along
I hate how you also used to front
Like you never looked at child pornography all night long.

I have a lot of hatred towards you
And I'm sorry if this causes you pain
But it's nothing but true
How I wish for you to feel in vain.

You act as if you know me
When all you know is me as a child
And I'm sorry if you can't see
But since then, the years have piled.

For I'm not your perfect daughter
I've grown up alot since I was younger
So don't try to bother
Because I'm not listening to you much longer.

I'm tired of how you place judgements upon me
Like you're around and you know what goes on
When you have no clue how you don't see
Maybe one day you'll be long gone.

I just wish you wouldn't treat me like shit
But what am I to wish for something I can't have
For you'd never commit
To a little thing your daughter wants out of you, all you'd do is laugh.

So fuck you and everything you say
I'm tired of your harsh comments you make
So I'm taking a step to day
And stepping up to you to no longer be fake.

I'm going to show you the real me
Whether it's liked by you or not
This is how I am, you see
Or have you forgot.

...dramatized life! I swear.

wow. that poem had a lot of emotion into it. i know the most about family issues. its tough. if i were you krissi i would feel the same. just remember, one day this presence will forever become the past, so dull. when you have a family of your own you can change where it was bumpy for you so long before to make it easier on your children. so they dont grow up in hate and depression.

[COLOR=blue]I know, thanks for caring nick. It means alot to me. I just hate family issues and problems.Sometimes parents just suck at trying to understand or get to know their children, I really hope once I have kids..if I do in the future that they'll appreciate me and everything and not feel the way I do about my parents about me. Although, teenagers tend to go through these phases at some time or another. Because, you can't always have the understanding and comforting sides of you going at the same time. I just appreciate how my sisters were there for me atleast a little when I was younger, ya know? Because, if it wasn't for having someone older to talk to when I was younger.. who knows.. my life could really suck now. I feel alot better now since I wrote that poem. I got alot of feelings out in it. Although, they were kind of hatred.. I can't help it. Sometimes you build up so much emotions of anger towards something and once it bothers you again, your bound to bust! hehe. Well, thanks for being there, and I'm glad that I have you as a friend. Because you actually care so much! <3 well ttyl. Much love - Krissi.

Memory Lane...
I once went through a cutting spree
Only to feel the pain go away
To see the blood rush from me
And allow the pain to follow to another day.

I felt misunderstood as if no one understood me at all
I even felt like no one would care if I lived or died
Or even if they'd catch me once I hit my fall
So this is when the white and black of life's ways began to collide.

I once almost commited suicide a time or two
Either by the blade, or by the pill
I'm happy it wasn't a commitment that I pulled mysefl through
So to everyone who says i have no idea, i do know how it feels.

I felt like I didn't belong
Like no one around cared about me
Even though I had people all around me all along
I felt like I needed to do something dramatic for me.

I once was heartbroken and suffered from love
That's when I wanted to commit suicide
And be sent below, or even above
But as the time went by, I never died.

I felt like I had to get revenge
Because my heart had been left scarred
I felt as if my only way was avenge
But, it was never declared.

I once had love that seemed like a dream come true
Be slipped away from me and taken back to the sky
And all the things I went through
Even now I question the past with a simple why.

I felt so many ways over the years
But only know I've realized they've made me who I am
I faced and conquered so many fears
Just to find out who I am.

I once felt like that was impossible for someone
To find out who they were from within
I wanted to find anyone
To just sit down and listen.

damn! i had a chance earlier to glance at the first stanza. though now i am glad i came back to read this poem of yours. that was amazing krissibear, really. you are such a talented writer. though i loved the whole thing ,this above stanza stood out as the best. the rhyming scheme was perfect, it fit together so well. kudos to you for such an amazing poem ,really. i felt like i have seen you during all, well, most of these times feelings. may it be possible, or it has just felt like ive known you so long, it was one or the other, and i too am glad you are here with me today. as someone i love. :inlove: you are the greatest. there is no one else out there like you. you understand me so well, like seriously. like almost like my sister.

Aww...thank you snickerbear. Your words mean alot to me. I too am glad you read my poem. It has alot of emotions I've faced and went through stated in it and how I pulled through them all. So, this one inparticularly means alot to me.. not only because I wrote it, but because it has MY emotions in it. Thanks for all your comments. <3 I have no earthly idea where I would be even now without such a wonderful friend. You make me smile each time we talk, and even down to your thoughts of my poetry. You have seen me at one point or another of these times I've faced, and I too am glad I am here because I'd be missing out on an amazing friendship, with you of course. I feel the same way about you, as being the one of a kind. I've never met anyone quite as amazing, sweet,hella cute, and not be stuck up. You on the other hand, have always been there for me to talk to, been for me to release emotions to.. at times I tried to fight the urge to use the blade. This is why I'm so glad I was able to be introduced to you, even if it was by the internet. Everything happens for a reason... :5:

hm. hardly anyone reads my poems anymore.. :19: im debatin on not posting anymore... -krissi

you better or when you come down here im going to tell you wrong house.

Aww. Nick don't do that. It's just, you are the only one that ever reads anything I post anymore.. but, atleast someone reads them I suppose. I don't know.. anyhoo.. I'm gonna go.. you have your message up and i wanna talk to you.. but mmk. maybe you'll come back :5:

noo weirdo. it takes time. if you only add in sometimes, people only see part of your work as it gets pushed down. it takes a while. i hardly have many people looking at mine. and its not who replys, people will go, read and not reply. though it does not mean that they do not appreciate your work. i know you personally, and im not shy to say what i feel about your work. its great. so please krissi, keep posting here. for my sake at least.

Aww, that is true. Well, I suppose I can keep posting them.. as soon as i write some more. Which I feel as if I might start writing now. By the way, your comments always give me confidence in my poems, to keep writing them.

yay !!!!!!

well im glad that i inspire you. its one thing i am happy that i can do for you.

yes, im glad as well. Unfortunately, last night as soon as i started to write my mom had to get on.. but i'll finish up what I started and post it later on.

I love this one.
Rose

Aww,thank you. That poem inparticular had alot of emotion in it, and is one of my favorite poems I've written. The emotions of feeling like a fool for loving someone.. so priceless. Anyways, thank you so much.

You are welcome. I've been there like some many others. That is why I love it so.
Rose

I too, have been there so many times. I hate the guilt and regret it makes one feel,but it's all part of life and living with emotions. You hurt sometimes, you feel good at others.. but, love hurts the most in my opinion. "Love can feel like heaven, but it can hurt like hell.."

Possible Love..
As I hold you close in my arms
I promise you how much I'll never let go
I'll protect you all from harm
I just wanted to let you know
There's no need for you to be alarm.

I hold you close in my embrace
I look you deep in your eyes
As I look at your wonderful face
As tears start to fall, with my silent cries
Of how I wish my past would erase.

You wrapped your arms around me tight
And told me sweet whispers for only me to hear
And swore to me everything would turn out alright
And that you'd always be here
To scare away all my fright.

Here I am now, speaking to you of honesty
I wish it wasn't so easy for me to fall in love
I want it to stay as just you and me
You were the only one that was sent from above
It's just so hard for us to be..

You have your life, as i have my own
We have our differences,same as our similarites
I'd rather be with you, then us both be alone
I'd rather be your lover, then one of your enemies
I'd rather take a chance of whatever is to come..
Then to let this possible love be blown. <3

Your work is flawless. I love this one to.
Rose

aww. thank you so much. I appreciate your comments. I'll be posting more soon probably.

I can't wait.
Rose

eh.. this is a new one. I can't think of a title for it either..tell me what you think. I wrote it about this, guy.. named Eric. I don't know, he leaves me confused. I hate the feelings he gives me, and how i know i've fallen for him and then he leaves me with no explaination. Guys can suck sometimes.

Untitled
I'm tired of falling so easily
I hate how I hold so much love in my heart
A few simple words is all it can be
That's all it can take, to tear my world apart.

I went to you, and you showed me so much love
We may have not been together, but the emotions were still strong
I thought you were my angel sent from up above
But, I guess I should've known better all along.

The way you held me so close in your arms
The way you'd kiss the night away
They way you protected me, from all that could harm
I sat and wonder what's to come the next day.

I hate how things can seem to be going the way you plan
But, then somehow down the road things got out of hand
And your left to suffer because of another man
And even now, you've still yet to understand.

Even now I wish I could make him see
The pain I hold deep inside my chest
He meant the world to me
But I guess I wasn't his best.

Awww,*hugs* I haave been there so many times.
Rose

hey krissi. nice job on both of the past poems you have wrote. excellent job. i love your writing as always. im kinda out of it now.. so i cant say much. so i will talk to you soon.

love nick

aww. *hugs back* it's nice to know that someone knows where exactly I am coming from.

hey snickerbear. thanks. Hopefully I'll get out of this state in mind I'm in, and i'll write on something else. But, this feeling I'm feeling right now is inspiring me to write.. so i probably won't. Well, I'll talk to you soon.

Much love as always,
Krissi