reposting old ones plus some new shit

when the stars stop shining
when the wind quit blowing
when the watre departs the rivers
i return home , i shall return home
when the sun wont hides at night
when the moon wont lose the light
when the waves keeps on crushing
i return home i shall return home
when the blood stops running
when the heart beats keeps on fading
when the sky keeps on snowing
i return home i shall return home
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tired of falling into sleep
tired of staying awake
tired of this body i carry
and the face i see
in that lake
tired of the only world i know
tired of living in and tired of
packing to go
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oh mother sea
i yearn for thee
ur touch still lingers upon my body
with wide embracing love
breaking waves keeps singing so sound
i feel so free as i wade into another world
maybe iam dreaming
maybe not
but i`ll pray for it so that it wont end
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why do we fall ?
if we fail to stand up again
are wqe destined to live with pain ?
handicapped with broken wings
worthless we are as withered weeds
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from where should i start ?

i just dont know !!!

my ink got dried

and iam out of words

severe wounds inside my heart

nourshing the pain

it seems they wont clot

aching alone with my agony

yet i failed to hate

for she storms inside my everything

she was my fate

and if i will end up hatting her

i`ll end up hating myself
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u fall
u crawl
u stand in pride
u strive for the light
u fight till the end
your blood shall nourish
this old precious land
yet u shall gain what others
failed to gain
while coldness rushes
insaide ur viens
savage victory
never to be defeated
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if u look deep inside my eyes

marvels and wonders u shall find

behinds it everything hides

heavens treasure inside it lays

rivers

oceans

fields of gold

gilding sun light

a castle so old
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balck is the color of the night
white is the color of delight
in ink i smother
i fall in rage
to fill in the blanks
u should reash ur goals
tattered papers
dusty words
winnowed all around me
i rejoce as u fall
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deep into the mist
i stand alone
lost
trodden
troubled and comfused
yet decisions should be taken
before the next dawn
iam stuck in a fork
in the middle of the road
dont know which way to go
left or right
left is where my heart is
right is where my life is
a roller coaster keep spennig me round
i fall
i crawl
iseek for a sign
cpmpromises never to be found
i need to ease my burden
i need to break free
a scoria cross road
right is where my love dwelles
left is where my roses bloom
life is what happenes while ur making another plans
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YOU ARE THE SUN SHININ' THROUGH THE DROPS OF RAIN
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as i run into the medows of time , my skin feels the touchs of the rough grass , memories of u and me , we ran , we laughed , we fell , i woked up from the depth of a dream , i woked up and u were dead , i reached to my pocket , a picture of u
i kissed ur lips caressed thy hair , took my bottle and went near ur house , on the old starirs i poured my first glass , i cant let go of u , i cant bear ur departure
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my heart to your sweetness flies
i wonder if you can feel my desire
to me ur my everything that never dies
inside my soul u burn like a fire

your are my only grace
i will dream of you forever
your beauty shines upon my face
to leave you , no never

nouni you are my love bunny
inside my heart you`ll always be cherished
loving you always my dear honey
without you i will be persihsed
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as u surrender to the touches of my lips
my tongue wanders upon ur boundless body
u fall to the hugs of my wistful arms
while ur hole of desire years to meet the lover
spiritless u sit on top of my love muscle
rosy nipples
to my kisses they are aroused
my hands contact ur tits
i reach down to ur belly button
i reach down to ur clit
fingiring
kissing
licking
mouth slams upon ur hot wet organ
tongue plunges into ur bottomless cave
u moan in pleasure
senseless , u are not
your eyes implores for more
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iam an organ collector


for every twisted mind
a sick hobby u`ll find
to do ur filthy deeds
u got to have the guts
fingers
brains
and toes
locked up inside the jar
stuffed intestines
smells so bad
pickled eyes bowls
hanged up veins
a portrait of blood
welcome to my gallery
iam an organ collector
do you have any guts ?
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turgid iam turgid

losing myself
yet iam still breathing
relentless tides
keeps pulling me down
to reach the bottom
to touch the ground
to sleep where once starfish had died
turgid iam
turgid
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poor are those who lives all their life in a one dreadful night , and the harshness of it will last forever and they want see the light until they taste death
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it happenes sometines that i get sick from everyone around me
iam tired from my words that do float inside my hollowed brain
iam disgusted from my pail tattered papers
ill from my old torned books
iam ragged like those brown sad leaves
the dust is piled upon my weary body
to young yet to eager to die
life is just a painful path
full of thornes
is there anybody can hear me
is there anyone can see me
iam screaming
iam bleeding
screams goes unheared
blood floats unseen
complitly lifless
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now this one its called a PEACE AND FLOWER POWER its not a poem dunno i just wrote it while i was under the influnce of .......... its (HILARIOUS) check it out lol


i saw i poopoo on the grass
maggots and worms upon it dance
are they making a party
can i throw a glance
they told me we are hippies
we are bunch of fagssss
we fuck each other
getting stoned together
we smell so bad
we never take a shower
come on join us
u`ll never be sad
oh fuck off u bunch of crape
fuck ur peace and ur flower power

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ok guys this is one of my lyrics ist gory littel bit hope u like it

THE WITNESS WAS A FLY

terrorized by my twisted mind
lifless u fall to the ground
battered and hammered
i enjoy the sounds
with every hit
bones crumbel into pieces
with every blast
blood spurts upon my face
no evidence was left
sulfuric acid cleansed everything around
no eye witness
to witness to this gore
except a tiny fly
watching with wide eyes
greedily gazzing
with great appetite
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as i lay on the cold floor
my image reflects it self
upon the empty bottle
shapes and blinding colors
are dancing inside my wide black eyes
a figure
a vision
dreams of the utopian land
rivers of vodka streams into my throat
trees of hash takes me up to where i belong
a place of numbness
a state of calmness
total silence
iam stoned
with every drop i taste happiness
with every inhale i enjoy the tranquility
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i`ve got nothing to offer ya
except my hands
they are so void
will u take those hands?
i`ve got nothing to give
except my heart
will you hold it so hard ?
iam so empty within
will you take my soul?
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my feelings to thee arent empty and it wont dry
for its an endless limitless ocean
an ocean of love, passion , and desire
my own feelings wont boycotting me
i miss ya my dear beloved one
to me ur the sun that never fades
ur the sweet breeze that dance upon my naked body
ur the rivers that tingles my inner soul
ur the heavy rains
piercing my tattered veins
ur my light
ur my guide
through ur almond shaped eyes i can see
ur my sweet angel
ur my other half
inside my heart u`ll always be charished
without ya my love i`ll be parished
i will fall and crumble
like a piteous ash blown by a heartless winter
for u i breathe
for ya i live
and for ya i would give anything
my life
my heart
and my soul
for you i exist
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yeild not my sweet sara to darkness
for there is more than darkness u`ll see
gaze and look deep into that blinding gloom
dive deep till u find the light
lightness flickers right from ur heart
rolling downhill
falling from the brige
i hand to carry ya above
where angels like ya dont fall
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this is one of my lyrics its not finished yet hopfuly soon hehehe cant wait to record it



as the flies eats u alive
maggots feastes upon ur flesh
vermins crawl under ur skin
leaving ya half dead half alive
tortured and nailed to the tree
i watch with pleasure
while the blood spree from ur wonds
devoured by my frenzied
knife dug between ur eyes
an axe to ur toes
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we live to die and we dont know to where we shall go
we lay so cold ,to rotten
we sleep so motionless
to turn to dust and small tiny molecules
yet we still see a misty beam
a warm light dripping from the crack
we know we shall rise again
to breed to breath
to live another life
wondering would it be the same
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“Another stranger will come in and you will tell him your story”



And you?



“Maybe I would do the same and every time I will forget a detail and it becomes shorter and shorter until there’s nothing left to tell… until it fades from my memory… but I will never burn this night”



You know what I feel something about you, a kind of magic, romance… Somewhere in your inside lies an angel tired of fighting wickedness, saddened by the hearts of men, abandoned by heavens, quiet, hidden beneath the veil of innocence.



“I am tired now I feel like I need someone to carry me home”



(He took her outside)



I can carry you above those hills… Watch the color of dawn ascending.



“It is beautiful”



It looks beautiful on your skin too.



(She laughs with shyness)



“Have you ever been to those mountains, ever driven through the mist on lonely nights?”



You are soft like my Angie… You love to dream



“But I am not your Angie. I feel I hurt you unintentionally. Maybe you should never see me again”



No please don’t say this. I’m sorry. It hadn’t been a long while, you know, to forget her.



“Will you ever?”



Ever what?



“Forget her”



I don’t want to for she was the best thing in my life… Are you cold?



“yes a little bit, it’s chilly”



He puts his coat on her shoulders and walks her home.



We used to go camping there in the land of eagles. We had wild nights by the fire telling endless stories.
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the skies are black and so ur eyes
ur body is a battelfield where brave men die
i yield before thy beauty
i bow to u , ur all mighty
drink to forgot and yet iam stil stuck , each second passes by and iam still falling deeper and deeper no love lost my lady no love lost , no love lost but i have my pride , and yet there is nothing i can hide no love lost
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i close my eyes
and what do i feel
sweet gentel kisses
drawn upon my face
angelic hands
caressing my every existence
touches that do heal
my inner soul
iam woven by thy
warmth
purity
and sweet love
blessed iam my lady
blessed iam for i have known
an angel like thee
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in loving rest
though ur body wont rust
ur soul is kept to blow the dust
in coldness u burn
u melt the ice
u flame the thorns
the rose will rise
every menory of u
every kiss
every touch
is kept forever inside my eyes
too strong
too rubust
yet too weak to forgot
i watch the last drope
willingly fall into my lungs
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* first of all its a shamful thing to write songs about everything in this whole universe and not to mention , that sweet gentel stool , that fits ur butts , everyday it bears and sustains ur gifted shit with an open arms and with a big yellow smile upon its face , yes u may feel guilty now , how could u forget that sweet white stool , white the colour of peace and love


* now as for the lyrics its untitled iam still lost between feces ejaculation and flatus bombs

flush the toilet , flush it hard
waterfalls inside the stool
too much poopoo
dive into the pool
peepee ocean
yellowish fluid
that toilet seat just fits ur butt
fermented shit
feces ejaculation
slids from ur cunt
flatus bombs
dropped on to the brown shore
toxication
suffocation
ur spreading virus from ur ass
do ur deeds and keep on launching gas


ps : hope u enjoy it
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thou art ur eyes my everything
thou art my grace
thou art my only place
watery eyes where love keeps on flowing
lustrous beam shinning
flickring
sweetness i beg thee lovely jade
a rhythm
a soft tune
i was dancing inside ur moonshaped eyes
with the shadows of lunacy
i was lost
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(i looked deep in her eyes and spoke the truth)



You had been in solitary confinement for too long

The walls of your prison painted with hearts

All broken to pieces

And poison runs through you for ages

In your memory beautiful moments

And a diary of burned pages



“Don’t we all have burned pages”



Would you ever burn tonight… Would you burn my face… forget what we talked about… everything… when you walk out of here?



“Another stranger will come in and you will tell him your story”

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At late night they danced. The place was empty all the noises gone all the faces disappeared and they were left alone two strangers in the dark. At the rhythm of a soft tune they stared at each other walked around the place till they started to dance. They were not dancing together but with the shadows of lovers they lost.
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racial holy war

kill those stupid fucking whores
smash their faces right to the door
ur prophit sucks
and so u do
we`ll fucking rape each one of ya
fucking race need to be slaughtered
need to be burned , gutted , mangeled
racial holy war
rivers of gore
ur blood will runs
reloading our guns
killing , sabbting , hacking
no remorse
no sense of feeling
showing no mercy to ur fucking race
racial holy war rivers of gore
we rule over ya
and we`ll always be
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Darkness is heavy

And loneliness built walls within me

Love turned to memories

Bitter & sweet drowned

In my soaking tears



Your face no longer shine

But a distance away

Behind the walls of my solitude



Your words no longer mean a thing

But pacific fallacy



Lie against lie I’ve been bound to deny

For the love of thy

To see the light



But darkness befalls

Enfolds our hearts

And I lay here alone

Beneath the load of the heavy night
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sometimes ur closest ones hurt ya more than strangers do , and u wish that thing never had happened u suffer alot cz u still live in the shadows of that memory , forgiveness never to be found , u need to drink from the river of forgetfulness (lethe )
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lost you are but i'm here for you
doesn't matter if i'm lost too
for two lost will make their own way
and the world around will fall astray


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and i see the color of dawn in your eyes as you lay still, sorrow abscond your depth fly into your room like a dark raven, your body wet i lift your head up in my hands a smile of peace draws on your lips and your eyes shine as deeper you drown released in the bottom of your sanctuary
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i wish to drown drown into a depth of an ocean made from that fluid that do streams into my stomach in sharp stabbs of pain , i wish to drown and suffocat into an ocean made from vodka , my corpse will lay at the bottem numbed and happy i`ll pass away while all my sorrow shall be washed away
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i close my eyes
and what do i feel
sweet gentel kisses
drawn upon my face
angelic hands
caressing my every existence
touches that do heal
my inner soul
iam woven by thy
warmth
purity
and sweet love
blessed iam my lady
blessed iam for i have known
an angel like thee
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close your eyes and feel
the gentle kisses
and the touch to heal
all your inside wounds
tear those papers away
black is the blackness of the night
this is where you write
beyond the darkened skies you scream
and i hear you from far away
so close your eyes and feel
the gentle kisses blown your way
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sodom`s palace of pleasure. much more wine rushes in
Drunkenness relieved by lechery,
pain brings pleasures ,hands fingers , mouth, thighs
i storm i roar , i fall in rage
ur breasts aroused
to tongue u fall
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Harmony



When I am in pain I know you are out there

And feel the same

I can hear your howl of agony

Comes from the deep forests

Across the frozen hills

It cuts the night as sharp as a blade

And right through my soul

Thaw with mine

Sadness we share for sadness we are

And no matter how far I know where you are

Across the gravestones of memories

Where the nights are cold and the rain is ceaseless

In the depth of you… alone forevermore

You tear up your skin of man and fly

Beyond the icy mountains

Across the threshold of time

I taste your tears like bitter wine

As I close my eyes and feel thy dark sorrow



When I am bewildered I know you too

Have lost your way

Confusion thrash our minds

Surrendered to the winds that carry us

Beyond death and life

And the kingdom of gods

Defying thoughts of supreme dejection



When I am falling

I know you can love as mad and deep as I

For your heart was forged in the wildest heavens

Forever ardent and compassionate

And I know now as I’m weary

You are dreaming of eternal sunsets

Beneath the ruby shores

You and I children of the coldest winters

Behold for the leaves are starting to fal
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These are the last words of love you’ll ever hear from me. I’m not used to be weak I used to get over it. And even if it kills me burn me inside I will only say I feel nothing. And if you ever see the tears in my eyes I will hold it coz I have pride. It will be ice. This is the one promise I can keep. No more love for me. I feel cold inside like winter in Finland’s forests.
Love Dies



Cold pierce my skin

Floods of rain run in my veins

Bloody love turned to water

And I know I will never see you again



I feel nothing not even pain

I stand tall in my last demise

And I know love dies



I know you care less

For you never loved me too

And I…who had almost died

Burned like hell for you

I feel nothing I’m frozen



You killed me inside

Of warmth I’m left without

And love deprived



Watch the last sunset in my eyes

Watch the dead tears hold back

As love dies

I feel nothing

But a heart burned with lies

A one sided love never would last

Like a bird lost its nest

Nothing more to give

All laid at your hands

And I’m back with an empty heart

Empty love empty ME and I feel nothing

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