Through the smoke of the fire that once was our love
I see a dark fate beckoning
I turn my face to hide yet see you pushing me on
Leading me to the edge
Cheering me with a malicious smile
I ponder what hope I have left
There is no one but us in the barren wasteland that was our future
And I know I can't hide for ever
I see no comfort in you or anything else so I don't bother to run
We both held a seed to plant paradise
Mine I burnt
Your's you never wasted on me

So now the smoke clears and I behold a wonderous sight
Porcelian bath with razor sharp adornments
I can't wait for their embrace
I cry with relief
For none shall miss me and with this realization
I feel liberated because the future is so easy to understand
I am not meant to be a part of your divine plan

Beautiful! I loved it, and can relate to it as well.
Great work!
Peace,
MourningAngel... :ph34r:

Bye the Bye, I have a deep, intense, passionate love for Crows. :)

All I can say right now, is wow. I'm sorry, words have abandoned me at the moment. Give me some time and I will come back and post a better compliment. *wants to read more of this great work*

Though charred
Like the mystical phoenix
My heart shall rise again
To love or be burnt I know not yet the risk must be taken
For true happiness is a leap of faith that must be undertaken
For my wrists sake if not my own!
So sharpen the razors and book the fancy restaurant
As I prepare to throw my self into the gaping maw once again
I will either fall or rise tall
Only time will tell the outcome of tribulations yet to come

Throwing yourself to the wolves to see if you will survive, interesting i must say and quite an enlightening poem. I love it and keep up the good work

Thank you for replying my apologies for taking so long to write a response but my computer got staked through the heart and turned to dust SORRY!
Thank you for the support and please reply when i post new stuff! thankz again!

Boil my tears
To form the basis of your soup of contempt
Add 1 part powdered and disillusioned heart from the gaping wound in my chest
Add 2 parts crushed soul from underneath your feet
And don't forget to stir your lies through because all things should be made with love
Pour in some acid for this needs a bit of a kick in the teeth especially when you are down and hurt
Add crap because I've grown to love the taste of bullshit
And o I don't know maybe some broken marriage vows to make the mixture go down easier
A lawsuite or two for flavour and I think sour broth is ready so get ready to pour it down my throat!

MMMMMMMM! tastes delicious you bitch! Fuck you and your lies!

[COLOR=red]I'm grounded in this site, so my post might not come in, but, first welcome to the threads! lolOh and I liked this one so much, because it was so cool, how you put it together. . . anyway, good job and keep posting more of your works k? Bye
~~DeadlyReaper~~

PS/ Stop by my thread and say hi sometime! I need some comments. . .

I wander aimlessly through this barren and desolate wasteland of pain crying and mumbling to myself deliriously
Listening to the echoes of my howls of pain that remind me that once I was human
But no more
My heart bleeds through this bandage of indifference
And I believe that my soul eloped with my joy long ago
My wounds chaff and bleed
The ones on my hands and feet
Created by you crucifing me for your sins
But i don't care anymore for soon death shall sweep me into a lovers embrace
And wipe my tears and my pain away
Yet what is this?
In the lingering twilight I see a silhouette of an angel beckoning me forth
I stumble to your side Dark Reaper and you catch me before I fall
Now I feel enlightened and exuberant because I feel like I might be able to make it
So as you leave me to return to Heaven The Crow Caws a Tribute to Dark Reaper

I run
Yet from what I know not
I hide
Yet from what I know not
I cry
And I wish I didn't know why
I howl
And I wish I could forget these memories of you
For they float in my mind constantly crucifying me
Nailing me to a cross condemming me for my past mistakes
Though few they sear my mind and torment me
Forcing me to run
From what exactly I don't no
Yet I think it would be bad if i were to confront a mirror right now
For my sanity or health I know not
So
I run
From what I'm afraid to know
I hide
From what I'm afraid to confront
And I wish I didn't know why
Why I run. why I cry, why I hide and why I howl
And I wish I could forget these memories of you

i like the feelings portrayed in this
but i think more descriptive words should be used
just my opinion though

well that seems reasonable enough!
have yoiu checked out the other stuff ive done in another link?

sooo I don't know if this is the one you were telling me about. . . but I liked it alot it was very nice, but something bothers me. . . there are three threads of yours, why don't you put it in one? that way I don't have to go everywhere and look for them. lol But your stuff is really good don't ever stop

HA I found it lol it is very cool I love it! you are a very talented writer you are a good one yep!I'll keep looking at your works! PROMISE *bows*

Within me where all hurts and I live to die
I feel something brewing
Something swelling
Something growing
Like the Hulk it struggles to break free
Struggles to emerge into the daylight pouring so bright onto this world
That long I have hidden from like Gollum underneath his mountain
My mountain was a burden carved from stone and pain
Etched with suffering
Nailed to me, to my hands and feet
Yet now the weight seems to have lifted
I lift my feet
And show my face to the sun like a sunflower
What is this strange thing lurking within?

more to come soon i promise!

great stuff. your works are excellent

very nice work. i am grateful that you share your talent with us... Ja Ne. :meow:

My soul has been shred asunder and scattered to the four winds
I feel buffeted and windswept even though i stand still
For I have started my life anew and it hurts like hell
I have seen fire and brim-stone and now I simply want to live
Be forgotten for past nefarious deeds maybe forgiven
And left alone to live in atonement for past wrongdoing


More 2 cum soon

Again, I have to say, your work is beautiful.
I love the way write, getting to the point without alot of words jumbling the process....
I have my own issues with that....My poems turn into novels. ;)
Great work...
I love reading them and hope you keep sharing...

Peace,
MourningAngel... :ph34r:

Well I try to say what needs to be said in minumum words with maximum visual imagery thank you for the support and replying to an earlier reply do you really have a deep passionate love for crows? this intrigues please respond! o and turning poems into novels is not nessecarily a bad thing either!

wow, i need to make sure to re read your stuff when i get back, i think your poetry is amazing(which means its some of the best cuz i never use that word)i wish my poetry was half as good as the stuff you have written. i cant wait to read more, welcome to the forums....or whatever they say....

keep writing.check out my thread if you want.

Hello my crow? How are you? I hope to see more of your wonderful poems soon because they inspire me also.

Well that seems reasonable Dark Reaper! ill try n rite sum more stuff rie now in fact! o n thankz Deformity of God very privileged havnt yet read you works but promise I will soon! peace out The Crow

This is one of my first structured poems that is not obsessed about depression and suicide even though it is quite dark!
Enjoy!

Atomic Wasteland

I watched the flowers float upon still waters
I saw the sun bounce and play upon it's clear surface
Mosquitoes driving me away
As summer days faded I forgot
Now as I stand before you again I see you have grown old before your time
Flowers that once did float on your gentle surface now writhe and die
The sun that did once play upon your clear surface now lies trapped like a fly in a spider’s web
Mosquitoes driven to find new homes how I wished they would drive me from this sight
Murky water filled with filth from man's wars
I shudder and my biohazard suite rustles there is no beauty here in atomic wasteland

Hope you enjoy these poems, they are of a slightly different nature to my other works

Dark n Twisted

My mind is twisted like a maze
A puzzle box with no key and you can’t see inside
Leave me be
You don’t understand me stop trying to change me!
The sun don’t shine but im not Goth
I just think dark thoughts
Depression and suicide are my Siamese twins
I love to kiss cold steels razor sharp embrace

Insomnia

Sleep is a foreign land that my ship can't sail to the wind of boredom is pushing me backwards while high waves of restlessness make for a troubled journey

This is a very basic bleak poem not the best but I thought I would let you decide!
No title as yet sorry!

I feel a great blackness descending on my mind like a tidal wave of despair
Suicide whispers evil plots in my ear
Hope has eloped with my joy and fled the country like
refugees
Now I stand lost before bleak options and a bleaker
future
Theres a storm on the horizon that I can’t escape it
calls to me
Seducing me to despair
Sweet caress of razor blades like a lovers touch to me
So why resist?

This poem speaks for its self somewhat!

A State of Mind

Though you can carve this mountain I bear into something resembling joy
I feel that there will always be
Something inside
Burying me
Hiding me from the sun
Closing me off from all my options
Leaving me with
Nothing
Nothing but
Tears
Pain
Sorrow
And a new friend
Sir Razor Slasher

Life

Though I want to break free of the shackles you placed on me
I feel that I wouldn't and couldn't have the strength to face you if I did
I trudge mechanically placing one foot after the other
Not knowing where I'm headed
And not really caring either
For all is black and I stare silently as my heart bleeds through this bandage of casual indifference
Mixing with my tears turning the ground I toil through to sludge
Reminiscent of the state of my life
Where my soul has eloped with my joy
And hope got buried and left behind

Please read this as a work of imagination and not fact!

Through these eyes

Does she know how I feel
Does she know how my heart skips a beat then tries to elope from my chest every time I see her?
I don’t think she does and I’m scared about what will happen if she found out
Her friends hate me and call me names
Her family don’t know about me
Can’t know about me
The strains of that Police song swim through my head
As the school bell tolls
I see her!
She is wearing a skirt and a pleated jumper
She looks amazing as usual
There is that leech she calls her boyfriend I don’t know how she can put up with him
Pawing at her and kissing her in public
I no she would rather it was me
I no that she realizes that we are meant to be together
Nobody could understand my feelings for her
Our feelings for each other that start fireworks every time we feel each others presence
Is true love wrong?
when both agree and feel truly madly deeply for each other
Does the thirteen year age gap truly matter?
Why must society condemn us?
I am 26
She is 13 yet we love
Like ice to water it is a natural process that can’t be stopped

You do have a gift for getting to the point with maximum visual and minimal wording...that indeed is a great gift.
And Yes, my love for crows is deep and very, very intense...I see them in my dreams...
I have some very personal issues that brought me to this love...
To this desire to be associated with the power and positive energy the crow brings to my life...
Alas, I cant seem to explain without letting my most personal tragedies be aired for all to see...
So I will just say, that indeed my love for crows is very deep and your Poetry fits in with the vision I hold in my heart....
I may not make much sense to you, or anyone else for that matter...
But in me, it is as perfectly rational as the sunset....if thats rational in any sense of the word?!?...ah, but I ramble.
I enjoy very much reading your work...
Thank you for sharing...
I hope to see much, much more.
Peace,
MourningAngel... :ph34r:

Bye the Bye...my work turning into novels is a thing Im trying to stray from...but my feelings cannot be expressed in such a short manner...I dont have the gift of that particular phrasing...I am a very metephoric writer...OMg..again I ramble..sorry :)
Have a great day...or night...whatever the case may be where you are....
Peace....

Alas Ravenous that I am unable to hold thee when you are in pain and wipe away thine tears!
Your reply screams of a deeper hurt then I will ever fully comprehend but i can try! I am willing to reveal my MSN account so you can add me as a contact if you want? I feel that maybe I can help? And talking on MSN affords privacy that lacks in this topic board and while you may not want to air personal tragedies to me I think that even talking in general to me may help! Please tell me yay or nay and I'll post my contact ASAP!
Love The Crow

Alas Mourning Angel that I am unable to hold thee when you are in pain and wipe away thine tears!

Your reply screams of a deeper hurt then I will ever fully comprehend but i can try! I am willing to reveal my MSN account so you can add me as a contact if you want? I feel that maybe I can help? And talking on MSN affords privacy that lacks in this topic board and while you may not want to air personal tragedies to me I think that even talking in general to me may help! Please tell me yay or nay and I'll post my contact ASAP!
Love The Crow

How Beautifly Enticing your words are....
But, unfortunately I don't have Msn.
My computer lacks some Dll files,
and me, bieng just a tad bit computer illiterate, well I don't have Msn. :)
I can not seem to figure out how to aquire these particular files..eh.
At any rate, if you would like, you're more than welcome to email me anytime... My email is Weeping_Angel@darksites.com
I would love to converse with you as you seem to stimulate my intelect and thats a rare occurance. :)
Thank you so very much for the offer.
I hope to talk with you soon.

Peace,
MourningAngel... :ph34r:

Not knowing computers is probaly a good thing so do not worry! At the moment I'm trying to add myself to the Darksites website but its bing a biatch!
When it is working ill let u know!
In the mean time please keep writing and resist teh urge to hurt your self in any way shape or form!
With a deep passionate L VE! The Crow!

Hello lol, how are youuu!!! lol. . . *defeated by the grandness of your poems* wow awesome dude, too much to read. . . me goings to read the rest ok? lol me just read the last one, and me likes alot. you really have talent, I love it. ok!!! me goings to read!!!! :cofpap:

Thank you for bieng concerned...Is my pain that apparant???
Worry not...for I don't have what it takes to do such a thing...
Indirect self destruction is part of human nature. In my belief.
But, if you are refering to a suicidal urge..
No, although the thoughts cross the mind at times...
I have the inclination to believe that most of us have or will have such fleeting thoughts of ....'Ah, everyone would be better off without me' and so on.
But the simple selfishness of such an act, will not allow me to give in to such idiotic behavior.
Those days are far behind me...I find that my will to live is very strong.
I thank you deeply for such great concern and for actually seeing the reality of the pain behind the words....
Thank you, as well, for encouraging me to write...as it is my only release..
my purge, if you will.
I appreciate you seeing my pain in reading my words.
Seems you have a gift. :)
Peace,
MourningAngel... :ph34r:



*edit due to atrocious spelling skills* :cofpap:

Hey how are you? Your pain is not a sign on your head but it does seem aparent to me because I recognize the signs of anguish and sorrow that are signposted within my own poetry. Your reasons to find a different medium to suicide are fairly similair to my own and your strong will to live is an insperation to me. Just wondering did you get my em@il? And also there is no need to thank me for my concern because......... well I'll explain in my next poem but needless to say I care deeply for you and yeah O and by the way the Darksite will not let me set up an em@il sorry and also what country do you live in?
With deepest love The Crow

Your words draw the circling Crow lower to hover over a cross where you bear your pain silently only able to scream through your poetry at the injustice and the harshness of this world

Trials and tribulations of a thousand agonies you have fought and though it doth leave scars they do attest to thine courage and fortitude that inspires a thousand angels to fight on your behalf

Plus one Crow

And while I can't carry your cross for you while you struggle through the muck and mire of this life I am willing to bear you up and carry you fowards through fire and brimstone

To Eden or Utopia maybe or possible just to happyness

So please let me express what my heart screams at me from way down in my chest, let me rejoice in what my soul tells me for I can scarcly believe it myself and if I am dreaming let me never wake and if I'm awake let me never sleep

For I have found a soulmate in you Mourning Angel

And an orchestra of angels doth play a most harmonious tune to mine ears while my heart an soul doth soar with the circling Crow to celebrate this meeting, strange yet meant to be maybe?

Love The Crow

I live in The States.
Though my soul calls me to Italy.
Florence to be exact.
I did get your email and will respond.
I just haven't had much spare time of late.
Sorry:)
I do feel the need to thank you for your concern as I apprecaite it deeply.
To see in someone the ability to read and have the deep relation to my pain has intrigued me to say the least.
Thank you.
Peace,
Mourning... :ph34r:

You have left me awestruck...without words..That is a feat in itself!
I try to find the words to describe your beautiful work of art...but am afraid my words could never describe such elegance, such a sweet, pure understanding.
I am honestly so very flattered. As I have never in my life had a poem such as that meant to be for me.
I feel very honoured as well that you see in me what you would percieve to be your soulmate.
I have to admit, you see deep into my words and decipher them almost verbatem.
I can not thank you enough for this beautiful, glorious working of words.
Your Talent exceeds my wildest dreams.
Again, I am humbled and in awe of such beauty.
My words dont do it justice.
I can only thank you...
*Graciously bows*
I wish you the Deep Peace and Love that you seem to know is associated with what your bieng brings...
Mourning... :ph34r:

You have beautiful words here. The first few poems seemed to be about divorce. I'm sorry you had to go through that. I hope you are happy and moving on now. If not happy then at least moving on. Using poetry as an outlet seems to work beautifully for you. Keep up the good work!

Lingering Darkness thank you for your kind words of support and enjoyment of my work but I am only seventeen! I have never really been in a serious relationship but the few short relationships i have indulged in i got either burnt hurt or both!
the pain of seperation and pain in itself is something that i associate with quite easily so i dont no *shrugs

I like your words...
they seem very full of emotion

Hey Mourning Angel I would like very much for you NEVER to apologise to me because well once again I'll put it into poetry for you because otherwise I lack eloquence! My concern is like the eternal river that runs to your ocean of hurt and my relation to your pain is eerie if you think about it but I quite strongly belive in fate and destiny and soul-minds and soul-mates which obviously I expressed in my last poem. It kinda sucks that you live in the States but at least I have a good reason to travel! Florence in Italy eh? INTRIGUING!

Bhudda- Thank you! ^_^

Mourning Angel- I love you and though words may have failed you this time I hope it is not permanent! Also maybe i should stop writing to prevent it happening again? Nah just joking! I could never leave you! I'm glad also that you liked my humble attempts to praise such a glorious angel (you) I have to say though that the honour is ALL MINE because you have given me the gift of friendship that not only takes trust in all cases but especially in yours i daresay a hell of a lot of courage as well! I have also posted hugs and kisses to you by express mail hopefully you will recieve them soon! If not then here are some you can enjoy now! XOXOXOXOXOXOX! MWHA!
It seems that we share similair lives and that is possible why I can relate and write your pain so well? Either way it is a gift that I am privileged to use in helping you!
Thank you for your kind words of praise they warm my humble soul more then is proper!
Love as always The Crow!

You write words to try to and address the wounds inside that naw away at you making you weak and confusing you to what is real.
I will bandage your wounds and salve your pain if I can but all I can really offer is eternal friendship and eternal love.
For like two twins we are two halves of the same soul-mind and what happens to you hurts me or lifts me to the clouds and whatever you feel or experience I am right there for you all the way.
I swear an oath on my blood to protect you and nurture you for my concern is a river flowing to your ocean of pain.
I long to rescue you but I fear you might not let me so instead I will take the plunge to join you.
I hear your name and my heart swells while I rejoice in knowing you are alive

I pledge on my blood to be here for you in whatever capacity you need whenever you need it
If you need a shoulder I am here
And if you need a wall I am here
An Italian retreat whenever the real world hurts to much
I can cocoon you and rock you to sleep resting in my arms
Because of one four letter word
L VE!
Love has always been
Love always will be
And right now love is the biding glue tha draws us together strengthing both and helping us this cruel world and the bad foot we have been dealt in the game of life!

I apologise if that rambled I had several ideas that I was trying to put together and I am not sure if it all fitted together. O and just wandering have you ever seen that movie called Ghost? It is from the eighties with Demi Moore and Patrick Swazee? Let me know if you have
Love as always and forever The Crow

Again, I seem to be spellbound, with these beautiful words that are actually meant for me!?!
I am so honoured and humbled before you.
You have a gracious nature, a loving spirit and a great talent....
I love every word you have written.
I can't quite figure out what you see that is so special in me?
But then beauty and love are always in the eye of the beholder...or maybe not.
I'm not sure.
Well, at least I am honest. :)
I can not say enough how deeply touched I am by your words and your deep concern for me.
I only hope I can give back to you in some way....
I'm sorry that my words seem to escape me when reading what you give to my soul..That is a very odd thing for me...as I tend to be very wordy and ramble on and on....Perhaps I am not used to such things..
I can only say Thank you .....and I am so honoured.
Peace and Love,
Mourning...

Bye the Bye, I have seen 'Ghost', a million times!...I grew up in the eighties :D
And I cry my eyes out everytime I watch it...
But then, I am probobly the biggest baby you have ever met, As I cry at anything that provokes emotion....:)

I feel in love with your words and beauty is irrelevant to me because I get judged for a lack of that so I could never give to someone else the pain I have experienced. Please stop putting youself down because you will create a negative situation for yourself or if applicible compound your current situation. O and by the way yes that last poem WAS meant for you! Well if you know Ghost then you will know the theme song from the clay/lovemaking scene. Next time you here it either on the radio or wherever I would like for you to think of me because I think the song relates, the movie that possible relates to us is Sleepless in Seattle? I don't really know though because I'm a romantic fool who has been burnt by love yet I illogicaly keep searching futily for it. Ghost makes me cry everytime I see it too! I also cry at anything remotely resembling emotion so yeah it ant anything to be ashamed of!
Silently watching The Crow observes Mourning Angel with L VE!