I haven't posted in what feels like forever, I wrote too much over a short period of time, and lost site of any ispiration. Thankfully, I woke up from a nightmare in a cold sweat last night, and this came out of me.
I kick out the chair and the noose snaps tight.
FUCK! My neck didn't break, I didn't do it right.
Three attempts and still no success.
I shouldn't be here it's all such a mess.
Pills, Knives, Ropes, what more could I try.
I'd do anything, if it would make me die.
I'm tired of pulling myself through this endless strugle.
I wish someone would crush my head with a cudgel.
This darkness opens up and swallows me whole.
Fuck all this shit, I'll just go smoke a bowl.