WATCHING
I watch her do it;
Caring and waiting;
Wanting her to do it;
Wanting to do it myself;
Being helpless;
Being unhelpful;
Having to watch;
Knowing I can’t stop;
Knowing it is wrong;
Wanting to run;
Trying to hide;
Failing again;
Losing faith;
Listening to them pray;
Wishing I could;
Knowing it won’t help;
Trying to sleep;
Knowing I can’t;
Wishing for death;
Wanting to be in the car;
Be there when she did it;
I would not have survived;
Knowing what I know;
Seeing what I have seen;
I want it all to be a scene;
In a movie story play or book;
Something just to get me off the hook;
I need more space;
I need more comfort;
Need something to take the place;
The empty space;
The place for my heart;
For I burnt it in a barrel of flames;
Just so I would not feel the pain;
Watching her do it;
I know what I need;
I should do the humane;
Put her out of her misery;
Watching

PURPOSES
She did it on purpose;
She tells me to talk to her;
She did it on purpose;
She says not to lie;
She did it on purpose;
She says so many things;
She did it on purpose;
She says I did it;
She did it on purpose;
I ask her why;
She did it on purpose;
She says I do not understand;
She did it on purpose;
I bury my thoughts in the sand;
She did it on purpose;
I hide from them all;
She did it on purpose;
Nevertheless, I feel so small;
She did it on purpose;
She says we are young;
She did it on purpose;
However, we are older than we should be;
She did it on purpose;
I try so hard;
She did it on purpose;
I wish to fly away;
She did on purpose;
I try to help;
She did it on purpose;
I make it all worse;
She did it on purpose;
She blames them;
She did it on purpose;
I know it is my fault;
She did it on purpose;
I escape into another realm;
She did it on purpose;
I am away at last;
She did it on purpose;
Then comes the blast;
She did it on purpose;
She yells and cries:
She did it on purpose;
She asks me why;
She did it on purpose;
I try not to feel;
She did it on purpose;
I hate these emotions;
She did it on purpose;
I wish I were dead;
She did it on purpose;
Inside and out;
She did it on purpose;
I try not to cry;
She did it on purpose;
As I look in the sky;
She did it on purpose;
I see demons in the clouds;
She did it on purpose;
So hard to see;
She did it on purpose;
Yet, I am all I can be;
She did it on purpose;
I cannot stand the pain;
She did it on purpose;
I can imagine the car;
She did it on purpose;
Imagine the feeling;
She did it on purpose;
Seeing the other car;
She did it on purpose;
A four-wheel drive;
She did it on purpose;
Knowing they wouldn’t hurt;
She did it on purpose;
Not expecting to live;
She did it on purpose;
Then hitting the other;
She did it on purpose;
Waking up;
She did it on purpose;
Living though it;
She did it on purpose;
Failing in the death;
She did it on purpose;
I know how she felt,
She did it on purpose.
I now know why,
She did it on purpose

very interesting poem....dunno what else to say without it sounding like I'm prying.

Your poetry... it has an erie truth to it.. although it adds to its already great quality it also makes me worry for you... I know I may seem as a stranger.. a stranger who doesn't know of what he speaks... and I will not ask exactly what has happened... but I will still be here if ever you need to tell someone who can do nothing but help at this point.. I know I seem weird.. a stranger who cares... but of my emotions only one remains... the rest have since died as you wished upon yourself

but compassion for whatever reason remains and thus I am here for those in need.. keep writing.. your style is beautiful
~dark prince~

My hope deserts me,
as i prepare for what i must do,
I look over the edge of the tower,
it calls to me it pulls me,
I know what i must do,
I shall break my neck on the way down,
The rest is painless just a little air,
My neck fails meit did not break,
I think i should scream but it feels so good,
The air carries me away,
I feel as though it should feel peacful,
but it feels like just another mistake,
Yet i do not fear for my soul,
Nor am i worried for my freinds or family,
For whatever happens happensas it should,
As the ground grows ever closer,
I smirk, as my dad said i do have a secret.
One you should have know,
but i don't blame you, There wasn't alot to pick up,
So for me it's over but maybe we'll meet again,
so dad see you tommorow...

Your on the right track, I love a lot of the lines but some parts *thinks for a momment* its not that they don't flow... They're just a little underdeveloped. Try using more metephors and symbols. Add some flavor, texture, I'd love to see the results.

Kat